As most of you know, Halloween is my favorite holiday. Every year I have certain things I do that day…cook certain foods, watch certain movies. I even take the day off of work. Yes, I use a vacation day for Halloween because in my book it is indeed a Holiday.
One of the traditions I have always done as an adult on Halloween is drink wine all day. It was probably the one day of the year where I would drink wine at a slow pace, lol. I would sip on wine throughout the day as I would cook and get dressed up. Then at night I would break out the Transylvania (which is now from a vineyard in California so it kind of lost its street cred) wine and drink that. Of course once that bottle was gone (and that bottle didn't last too long) I would switch over to delicious IPA beers. Even our neighbors would come over and “trick or treat” with beer for us.
Obviously this is a tradition that will NOT be happening this year.
I've made is threw a lot of “occasions” in my sobriety…an open bar family event, a Dave Matthews Concert, our 1 year wedding anniversary, summer in general, my birthday, running a half marathon celebration…a lot of these event’s I thought would be extremely difficult, and some of them were, and I know Halloween will be as well.
But I will do what I have been doing and that is setting myself up for success.
I will make sure to have plenty of delicious sparkly water on hand. And to carry on the “wine” tradition I will pick up a bottle of some non-alcoholic wine. I’ve had non-alcoholic wine a few times before and it’s not that bad! I know that there are some who must steer clear of it because it is a trigger for them, but that is not really the case for me. Non-alcoholic beer however can be a trigger (since beer was really my poison) so I do not really consume that. I’ve had it twice while out on a lunch date with the hubby…it’s not awful, but it’s not good, and the taste just leaves me wanting more and set’s off that urge so I steer clear of it if I can.
I will pull out a fancy Halloween drinking glass or goblet and enjoy my non-alcoholic goodies in that. I think I might even get some yummy fruits like apples and black berries to garnish my waters. And how about some blood orange San Pellegrino…that is perfect for Halloween!!
Being sober (for a little over 8 months now) has taught me…well it has taught me many, MANY things, but one of them is that I can still enjoy holidays and functions and events without alcohol. Sure, there are some aspects of it that I miss and yes, the craving are still there…every. single. day. But each day I fight & I try my very best to stay strong and I remember how I was living every day for the drink and how my desire to not live like that again is stronger than my desire to drink. Sure, the idea of getting lost in a drunken haze sounds lovely. Giving myself one night to escape & succumb to the numbness that alcohol brings...I lived for that. But I don't live for that anymore. I can't...if I want to live at all. And I do...so I don't.
I do not need alcohol to enjoy or celebrate Halloween. The magick of the day has nothing to do with alcohol. The magick of Halloween is in the air and in my heart. So whether you are celebrating with an alcoholic beverage or not,
*CHEERS* to a delightfully magickal Halloween!!
Be sure to check out my social media accounts for pictures of my costume this year!!