Dear Beer

Dear Beer-
Hey. It’s Suzi. I’d ask you how you are but I already know the answer…you’re good. Real good. Too good.

You know, I bought my very first homebrewing kit so I can make some of your delicious, magical ale myself!! I am *very* excited about this. It is just another way for me to show my love for you.

However, I write this letter with a bit of regret.

You see, I’ve been sick for a while now. And during that sickness, I turned to you, a lot. And not your light friends. I turned to your heavy, golden, hoppy friends. Even while on all my medications to get rid of the crazy flu/bronchitis/sinus infection crap, I still cradled up with you on the couch. Hoping that you would give me ease.

Well I have to face the fact that you are not giving me ease. You tempted me with your evil ways and I once again fell into a trap that I was in many years ago. Remember that time?? When I was 101 lbs heavier than I am now…yeah, that time. You’re making me make bad choices, be lazy, and feel yucky.

So I have to change the rules of our relationship. Of course, I’m not giving you up completely…let’s not get silly here. But it looks like I’m back to your light brews for a little while. Actually I think I will wait to have my next craft beer until it’s *MY* craft beer!!

This isn’t the first time I have had to alter our relationship. I’ve written a similar letter like this before. I know you will be upset & you will try to tempt me each and every day, but deep down I know that this is something I need to do. Not to just lose the 10 lbs I’ve put back on (thanks to being sick mostly) but just to feel better about myself & get back into my normal, healthy routines.

You and I need to learn to be ying & yang again. And we will. I know we can make this work since we have so many times in the past.

With Love- Suzi

This is not for me!!

My god…I need to hire someone to do my blog posts apparently.  Fuck, am I lazy or what?!

Here comes the part where I blame it on weather, the season, my being sick with the flu….much hasn’t changed since my last blog post huh?? Eh…it has gotten better.  A bit.

Then there was tonight…

I recently, officially, became a Weight Watchers leader.  And just this past week, I was blessed with my very first OWN meeting,

I met with them tonight…staying quite.  Even though my poster hung in front of all of them and they looked and me puzzled, I didn’t say a word.  I waited and waited…then it came.  The leader now is moving and it was sad, and very emotional.  Some will go, most will stay with me I hope. 

I hear things like “Oooh, we have a celebrity leader!!” which made me giggle.  How sweet.
The thing is…I felt at peace with these people at once.  They started talking about drinking wine (I’m sorry…HELLO?!) and their energy was contagious.  I fell in love with them instantly.  They kept joking joking about alcohol and I said “Oh have no idea…this may turn into an AA meeting, not a WW meeting” LMAO!! They loved that.  I’m good at charm Winking smile

Something in my snapped…this isn’t about me.  This meeting isn’t about me.  It’s about them.  A woman was so brave enough to come up to me and tell me what she and her friend are looking for…homework!! I like it!!  Two others gave me a hug…

This meeting is not about me.

I’ve been a WW member for 3 and 1/2+ years….

This meeting is not about me.

Then it hit me.

When I chose to be on your meetings wall, on your TV, in your magazine… I chose to not have it be all about me.

Still, I need my outlet.  I need someone smacking me and telling me to knock it off, but…

I signed up to help all of YOU.  I signed up to show you that even “famous” ones screw up, get lost, and get back on track.  Weight loss is not perfect.  Life is not perfect.  If it was…we’d all be those hot bikini shots plastered every where, lol.

This seems like a hard task to burden...and it is.  But I know that this is the task I wish to carry out.  It wont always be perfect, or even meet within their guidelines, but it's a task I will never quite on, never give up on...never fight for.

I will find my own meeting again. (Kinda hard to do when you are plastered IN the meeting…but at the same time, I’m not complaining…I’m leaving the meeting I’ve attended for 3+ years, but that’s another blog post…good for long time WW members…)


THIS IS FOR YOU!!!!! That’s *why* I do this!!

Being able to lead this group is one of the happiest things to happen in my life!!  I feel blessed and honored and deep down, minus my fears and anxiety, I know that this is for me. I am meant to do this.  This is my path. 

And it could be yours….

I'm ready for Tuesdays!!!!
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