Uphill, Downhill.



Where there is a uphill there is a downhill and vise versa right. 

I guess you could say that my weekends are like that.  I will be 100% honest right here & now.  From Thursday night until Saturday night, I pretty much forget about Weight Watchers and being on program.  I know I touched on this in my post about my beer drinking on the weekends, but I’m not talking about the beer.  I’m talking about letting the mentality of the “weekend” take over your brain.

I said before that I usually allow myself some leeway on the weekends and try to follow one bad decision with a good one (uphill, downhill) but sometimes it doesnt always happen like that.  Sometimes I find myself making one bad decision followed by another one and the next thing you know it’s Sunday morning and I am feeling physically and mentally sick.

Of course, I most always get right back on plan on Sunday.  I try to get an awesome work out in to help ease the guilt some and of course, burn some of the thousands and thousands of calories that I’ve put on.  Then I usually spend the next couple of days before my Weight Watcher meeting, aka, my judgment time with the scale, being as strict and careful as I can.  Maybe I will even try to leave some points left over at the end of the day to try and help “even” out the weekend.

This is a bad habit people.  I mean, I’m sure cocaine is worse, but this shit can creep up on you like the runs after a strong cup of coffee.  The next thing you know, you are doing this *every* weekend. 

When you sit down and really think about it, you (me) are spending almost almost 50% of your week trying to play “catch up”.  So can you really call that week being successful??  If I have a loss on the scale that week, and believe me, I still do (and I know many of you hate me for that), can I still call that a good week??  I often say to myself, “Well I was really bad over the weekend, but I have done awesome these past 4 days so YAY me!”…do I give myself far too much credit there??

I am about *NOT* depriving yourself of the things that you enjoy and I am all about giving yourself that one day off.  But when does one day become one weekend, and when does one weekend become every weekend?? 

So how do we stop this vicious circle??  How do we learn to just have our one day, or our one meal, people let me tell you this right here and now people, I am not giving it up!  But I need to break a pattern.  I want to be able to say and believe that I am at least 90% successful in my week.  I don’t want to spend the rest of my week trying to undo the damage I did.  Well, OK, Saturday morning burning off the Chinese food is acceptable, but you guys know what I mean.

I think the first step is trying to break the mindset.  The mindset that I can “un-do” what I put into my body by the time I hit the scale.  And to get out of the mind set that the only time my weight really matters is when I’m ON the scale at the meeting.  This is a lifestyle, not a diet, so therefore I should be focusing on how I feel everyday, not just on Thursdays at the scale.  I usually feel amazing on Tuesday’s or Thursday’s because I’ve been so good and have made healthy choices.  I should feel somewhat close to that on Friday & Saturday’s too.

It’s really all about re-framing and that exactly what I need to do.  I need to reframe my thinking about the weekends and I need to plan out and stick to a one meal or one day rule.  I need to believe that I can still have fun without abusing my points during the three hardest days for me…Thursday night, Friday & Saturday.

I don't know what the scale will bring me tomorrow.  Most likely I am feeling that it will not bring me my much desired 80 lb star, but I know that is no ones fault but my own.  I again sit here on a Wednesday night and am careful not to eat anything heavy or salty for dinner, and I have even added in an extra workout, though it was a light one.  My mother took me to Red Lobster today for lunch and I actually made good choices, where believe me, they could have been very, VERY bad.  So I guess I have to look at those accomplishments instead. 

What do you guys do to help stay on track over the weekend??  Do you do the same things I do??  Is it an every weekend occurrence like it has become for me??

How do we break the circle?!?!  

Week 1 of the Crunch-Crack Attack!!


So here we are…officially one week into the challenge.  3 more to go!! 

How did everyone do??  I’ve seen some of your tweets and its really great to see that some of you are really making a great effort to get these little workouts in.

The only days I did *not* do either workout was Thursday & Friday.  Of course, these are also the days where I drink and usually do not eat my best, so I guess some habits lie hard with others.

However, I did manage to get them in and thinking about this challenge and knowing that I have to come and tell you what I did, did motivate me to get off my butt and do them.  Sometimes I did them right before or after a run, or sometimes I even did them in my full hair and makeup.  That’s what's great about this…you can do this ANYWHERE’S!!  OK….maybe at like a restaurant or mall it might be frowned upon but whatever.

So here’s my log…

6/20  - 75 crunches, 10 girlie push up & 2 attempts at a real push up

6/21 – 50 crunches, 10 side crunches on left, 10 side crunches on right, 16 girlie push ups, 2 attempts at a real push up

6/22 – 80 crunches, 12 girlie push ups, 2 attempts at a real push up

6/23 – 50 crunches, 15 girlie push ups, 2 attempts at a real push up

6/26 – 100 crunches, 20 girlie push ups

I also started my day today with 75 crunches and 12 girlie push ups so I’m ready to take on this week!!  Now according to the challenge I have to increase my crunches so I will vow to do at least 125 crunches in a row some day during this next week of the challenge. 

By the way…I look like this now:


Yes…I have an alien head now. I traded it in for my new killer body.

I hope everyone has had a great week and I can not wait to hear how all of you did!!  I know we have some rockstars on our hands!!

So please, leave how you did in the comments sections for all of us to see and cheer!!

I was a little on the bad side with my eating habits the past few days so I’m trying to be real good now.  Today I ran 4 miles and threw in some intervals so that felt good.  Now we are up and Frankie's parents in the country and I’m sitting outside trying to catch up on some blog work and emails.  Hopefully I’m not being rude.  I hope everyone has a great week!!


Fun Fact Friday

Hi everybody!!  Happy Friday!! 

This has been a crazy week and I'm behind on answering some emails and doing some blog posts, so for that I apologize.  I hope to catch up on everything this weekend, as well as a post about what we discussed at my WW meeting (portion control!).  I was down 1.2 this week!!  I'm only .6 away from getting my 80 lb star. Woo Woo!! 

How is everyone doing with the Crunch Crack / Gun Show challenge??  I expect people's full reports here on Sunday!!  I'm happy to say that I have done something everyday but yesterday.  There's still a few more days people to get a couple more crunches in.  I know you can & want to do it!!

So because I started this stupid weekly topic, I figure I better come up with something so here we go....here are some fun facts about yours truly...

1.) My current favorite power-run song is 'Wont Back Down' by Eminem feat. Pink.  It's off of his newest album and I'm in love with it. Check it out!

2.)When I was 13 years old all of my hair fell out.  My mother let me color my hair when I was pretty young and in my "punk rock" days I had a multitude of different colors.  Well, I decided I wanted to go blonde and get my hair cut like Drew Barrymore.  I wanted it to look something like this:

But what I ended up with was an awful bowl haircut which soon went into the worst bleaching process of my life.  The lady could not get the colors out of my hair and instead of stopping she kept going and going, without me really understanding what was going on.  Needless to say, I ended up with a little bit of orange fuzz on my head and some orange bangs in the front of my hair that managed not to completely break off.  If I had a picture to share I would, but unfortunately I do not have one.

3.) I'm allergic to onions. I love the smell of them when they cook in things, but I just cant consume whole pieces. Though my stomach can handle dehydrated onion flakes pretty well so at least I can have those.   

So there you have it folks.  If these posts suck and you want me to stop, I will.  Until then, deal with it!

Also, I want to take a moment to thank JackSh*t for putting me in his beautiful W.I.D.T.H post today.  Everyone should really take a moment and look into sending him a photo for a future post because they are simply beautiful and *so* inspirational!!  So thank you again Jack for the opportunity!!


Coulda, woulda, shoulda!

There are some days where you just want to give up. Not on life, but on trying so damn hard all the time.

There are days where you just get sick & tired of watching what you eat or what you drink….days where you’d rather poke yourself in the eye with a sharp nail than go and work out.

There are days of guilt about what you’ve eaten or done to your body. There are days where you wish more than anything that you could “un-do” what you did, but you can’t.

All you can do is move forward. Why sit here feeling sorry for ourselves?? We all fuck up. We all make mistakes. Anybody who says that they make good healthy choices 100% of the time is just a pure liar!!

We know we slip, we know we fall, but then why do we beat ourselves up so much on our way back to the top??

I wasn’t god awful this weekend. I actually made a lot of really positive and healthy choices. But of course along with those good choices were some bad ones as well. Saturday I said no to pizza & wings & had a salad instead (only to sneak a piece at 11:00 at night after lots of drinking :/ ) I drank on Sunday (something I told myself I wouldn’t do) at my family’s get together & I ate some things I shouldn’t have. I’m paying for it now thanks to a huge hangover. But so far today my only “bad” choice was half a jug of Orange Juice this morning to help ease the pain some.
I told myself that I would be good because I want to see a loss this week at my WW meeting. I want that 80 lb star damnit!!

But I did what I did. All I can do is try my hardest the next couple of days and remember that it was only a slip, it wasn’t a plummet. I’ve picked myself up and dusted myself off and have reminded myself that with the bad, there was good, and that’s pretty much how it will always be. I will always fall, but *I will always get back up*. Nobody can take my success away from me, and I certainly do not lose any of the credit I’ve earned so far on this journey just because I had a few slip ups.

I am a huge fan of this song by John Mayer, especially at times like these. It reminds me of how strong I am and how I continue to grow stronger, mentally & physically.

Bigger Than My Body by: John Mayer

This is a call to the color-blind
This is an IOU
I'm stranded behind a horizon line
Tried to be something true

Yes, I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded (by)
All this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting
For my fears to dry

Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be something much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for

Why is it not the time?
What is there more to learn?
I've shed this skin that I've been chipping at
And I've never quite returned

Yes, I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded (by)
All this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting
For my fears to dry

Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be something much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for
Cause I'm bigger than my body now

Maybe I'll tangle in the power lines
And it might be over in a second's time
But I'll glady go down in a flame
If the flame's what it takes to remember my name

Yes, I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded (by)
All this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting
For my fears to dry
Wait for my fears to dry

Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be something much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body
I'm bigger than my body
I'm bigger than my body now

Sorry to have such a somber post for the first day of summer, lol.  I hope everyone is enjoying the longest day of the year!! :D  Remember to do your Crunches & Pushups!!

Let The Challenge Begin…


OK my lovely Crunch Crack Heads & Gun Show Spectators…today is the day!!  Today is the day that we all vow to put forth the effort of getting our AB’s & Arm’s in SHAPE!!

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Here are the rules again:

-You do NOT need to participate in both ab’s & arms.  You can either one or both!

-You do NOT need to do a specific amount of crunches or push-ups a day.

-You do NOT need to do crunches or push-ups EVERY DAY. I am simply asking for 3 times a week minimum. 

-Somewhere logs your crunches & push-ups so that way you can brag on here about what days you did what & how many you did! (There just may be *something* for the person who really put forth a kick-ass effort…you never know)

-Another reason to track your crunches & push-ups…so that way next week you can meet the challenge of increasing that amount.  Now, I know I said 25 in the original blog topic, but I understand that for some that may be difficult so we will do it like this…YOU set the standard, but it better be a good one!  Say you can only do 5 sit ups now…what about 8 for the week after??  I’m horrible at math so I can’t really spell out a percentage here but in reality I’d love to see us DOUBLE our amounts in a months time.  Is that too much??  Maybe, but we’ll see as we go along. 

-We will check in every Sunday here on the blog and brag, brag, brag about what we did.  Or maybe what we didnt do…we are all here to motivate and cheer each other on to help shape up & tone up.

-And the biggest rule of them all…HAVE FUN!!  This isn’t a contest or a something that anybody is making you do everyday.  All we our trying to accomplish here is making another healthy choice a habit in our lives & increasing our stamina.

So there you have it folks!!  I look forward to hearing about your progress…if you want to leave comments on how you are doing during the week, please feel free to do so under this post, otherwise we will all sum up our first week on a post next Sunday.

::clears throat:: LET THE CHALLENGE BEGIN…… (just so everyone knows, I was yelling that in a loud growling voice, like I was announcing the ancient roman games or something)

In the mood for something crunchy??

I know I am!! And by crunchy I don’t mean salty like chips or pretzels or a crunch bar even….or wait, do I????
No, No, No of course not! I mean CRUNCHES PEOPLE…like ABDOMINAL WORK!! Or as some people like to call it, “core work”…that makes me think of apples for some reason so I always feel funny saying “Hey man I’m going to work on my core!” It just doesn’t sound bad ass at all. See now “Hey man, I’m going to do some CRUNCHES!” Now that…that sounds bad ass. T.U.F.F. tough!!

OK enough horsing around people.

I have decided that next to arms, the body part I am the least happy with is my stomach (I’m pretty sure I am alone in the world on this one). A lot of this is thanks to all the beer I drink I’m sure but also because other than running, I don’t really do anything to work on that area. Now before every starts getting a philosophical on me about how you scientifically cannot “burn fat” away from your belly by doing crunches…I know! But you can build muscle which can therefore burn fat which means I win this argument so ha!

So here is what I am offering here people….a challenge of sorts. I say of sorts because I don’t have any big awesome prize to give away and really, it takes some time to really see any physical “results” from doing crunches but the sheer act of making a commitment, a goal, a *promise* is what this challenge is all about!! It’s about stating here to myself and everyone else “I will do this!”

I started doing 100 crunches yesterday but for conversation sake we will say that this challenge, which I am coining as “Crunch Crack”…don’t ask me what that name means, it just popped in my head and it made me think of butt cracks and giggle so that’s what it is called.

Ok so “Crunch Crack” will officially start on Sunday, June 20th. What I am vowing is that for ONE MONTH I will do a set of crunches EVERY DAY. Now, there is no limit on how many you have to do. Yesterday I did 100, but today I might only be able to do 30. I know that some people can barely get in 5 of them…IT DOESN’T MATTER!!

But here’s the thing, another *part* of the challenge you could say….whatever your highest # is that you do during the week, for example I am going to say that more than likely 100 crunches will most likely be the most I can do in one day this week, so NEXT week I have to do at least 25 MORE crunches for just ONE DAY.

So that means that some day next week, I have to do at least 125 crunches in one sitting. Get it?? Of course you guys do…you’re all far smarter than I am LOL.

We will check in every Sunday to say how we did, or didn’t, and tell what # we are up to. We will all cheer each other on and motivate each other to keep pushing to those next 25 crunches!!

Pretty soon we will all look like this:
Ok maybe not but seriously, the woman has a killer body & some diamond cutting abs!! I read in a magazine recently that she does like 2000 sit ups a day or something ridiculous like that. Of course she probably gets paid to do them or something. Lucky bitch.

Any who…let me clarify something here people about what I mean by “crunch” because I know some people’s opinions and view are different, so here is how I do them:

-Lay on the floor with your feet on the ground and your knees pointing at the ceiling (I am not a personal trainer so sorry if I don’t know the “technical” terms for describing this).

-Put your hands behind your head (as if you were being asked by a cop & about to be arrested). You can loosely lock your finger if you want, but don’t grasp them so tight that you break a finger or anything.

-Keep your eyes to the ceiling but slightly in front of you (does that make sense?) and slowly lift your upper body so that your shoulder blade are off of the ground. To do this though make sure you are using your “core” muscles to pull your body up.

-Roll back down and repeat! :) Try to keep the pace slow. Don’t go up and down like a jack rabbit...that might be a different kind of challenge ;)

Here is kind of how it looks (minus the fact that I dont curl my head in on my way up):

Some people prefer the old method of hands across the chest or pulling all the way up to your knees. I have reads too many articles and have suffered too much back pain to believe that that is the proper way to do one. But…do what ever you want, just don’t hold me responsible for the pain ok?? ;)

Ok people…who’s with me on this?? Even if you don’t think you can handle every day, THAT’S FINE!! Maybe 3 days a week or something?? The main objective of this challenge is to get us to start doing abdominal crunches on a regular basis and to increase the number of crunches we can do in one sitting by the end of these 4 weeks.

Now I just need to something about my damn arms….

First of all, I'm so happy to see that you guys are on board and ready to rock this!  Again, there's no competetion here, it's just about making something as simple as doing crunches a *habit* & to help hold us accountable.  Anyways....

The wonderful and super fabulous Lor...seriously, she is great and you should really all go check out her blog Lighten Up, Lor.  I didnt realize until today that I was following privately, LOL. Sorry Lor, I'm a little slow sometimes, all the time, whatever!  Anyway's she suggest an arm challenge!!  Since you guys are probably sick and tired of listening to me bitch and complain about my arms, why not just fucking do something about it already!!!!!!!

So here we go...if you want to partake in the arm challenge you can but you dont need to.  Here's how it will work:
-10 "girlie" push ups...you know where your on your hands and knees (omg you people are killing me!! do you know how hard it is to NOT make explicit sexual jokes here!!) but just lower your arms. 
-1 or 2 (I'm doing two because again....Fun Fact Friday: I only like even #'s. Like if I eat pretzels or M&M's, I have to have 2 or 4 pieces) "Real" push ups.

Each week, increase the push ups by one or two.  Lor has appropriately named this the 'Gun Show' and I think that is fantastic!!  People better start lining up to get tickets cause this show is going to sell out FAST!!

Thanks again Lor for the fabulous idea!!  We will all owe our guns of steel to you ;)   

Crunch Pillow
Jennifer Aniston

Hey man, want a beer??

A few blog readers (along with some people on Twitter and people I see in the flesh) have asked me how I manage to still be a heavy (I know…I’m being modest there ;) beer drinker and still lose weight. Honestly…I have no freaking clue, LOL.

No, no, that’s not entirely true. For those of you are new to following me, and just as a refresher for the rest of you, I used to drink about 12-15 beers a day before I started Weight Watchers. Does this make me an alcoholic…Oh I am sure! But the simple truth is this…I love the taste of beer! There is nothing more enjoyable to me than coming home after a day at the office and cracking open a few Coors Light’s (I totally sound like a dude here, ha-ha). Problem for me is that (or maybe this is a blessing?) it takes quite a few beers to even give me a buzz, let alone get drunk. I can easily down a 12 pack and be alright.
(Now please note that I am not drinking these beers to get drunk. If I want to get drunk I usually opt for drinking a bottle of wine and to be honest, getting drunk is really not my favorite thing to do. Though of course it does happen but that would take me mapping out a plan to get drunk & that doesn’t happen very often at all)

It also doesn’t help that Frank is an even bigger beer drinker than I am and does not go a single day with out a beer, LOL. Oh man…I can see the e-mails now!!

This of course never got me thinking about just how many calories I was consuming in beer alone!! That’s 1,248 calories…or 24 WW points in one night on beer alone….24 WW points is my TOTAL daily point’s allowance, LOL.

I’m happy to say though that my drinking is not an everyday habit anymore. I’ve learned to enjoy other beverages during the work week (mostly diet soda of some kind) and very rarely do I touch a beer during the early part of the week. Now the weekend, that’s another story….

Recently I switched over to the Budweiser Select 55’s. They are pretty tasty for being such a low-calorie beer. Plus, they are 1 pt a piece. ;D

I usually have a couple Thursday nights after my Weight Watcher meeting and then Friday and Saturday I do my “indulging”. I have to be honest…I rarely ever actually count and journal my “beer points”. I know, I know…I can hear the WW Police knocking on my door as we speak. Now, I don’t condone NOT counting and journaling your food or fluid intake, but for me personally, this seems to be working. Do I feel better when I do track them?? Of course I do, but I give myself that Friday and/or Saturday to just enjoy myself and not feel like a “weight watcher” for a couple of hours and that feels pretty darn good too.

This is actually a picture of Jack Sh*t's time machine...don't let it fool you.

This kind of goes along with what I may eat on a Friday night or Saturday as well. I do what I have coined as “the every other.” For example: If I know that Frank and I are going to go out Friday night or order in some pizza & wings or Chinese food, I make sure to keep my breakfast & lunch light on the point side (but filling of course…think veggies people!) so that way when it comes to me downing some beers & pizza slices later, I get to enjoy them with a little less guilt. Then of course, the next day is a new day and there are healthy choices to be made all around. :)

We just took bottles & cans back last week, LMAO!!

I can already see some of your eyes burning holes through me right now LOL. This doesn’t work everyone. Everyone’s bodies and metabolisms are different and work differently. Believe me; I do not have some crazy super-human fast metabolism. It is in my genes to be “heavy”. I usually am able to follow a night of “bad” eating & drinking with a nice run the next day to help burn some of it off. But this is what works for me. My first time on Weight Watchers a few years back, I had the same philosophy. When I was living by myself I used to go to a local bar down the road every Friday night with my mother & a friend after work. We would go there for a couple pitchers of beer & their delicious fried food. I never deprived myself of it because I knew that if I did, I would never be successful on this journey.

See...even Amelia likes to relax with a cold one every now and then!

There are three things that I would NEVER give up while being on Weight Watchers and they are 1.) Beer 2.) Ranch Dressing (I have switched to light though!) and 3.) Cheese. I make these things fit into my life. Do I eat a brick of cheese at least twice a week anymore….nope! But I do still enjoy a brick every now and then (very rarely though!). I still love, love, LOVE my beers. Do I drink a 12 pack a day anymore….nope! But I do allow myself to have my day or two a week where I can just sit back, relax, and pop open some cold ones and tell myself “no regret’s…just for today”.

The Hunger Strikes Back!

Yes that’s right; I just made a Star Wars reference. What?!?! Don’t hate.

This past week at my Weight Watchers meeting we touched on the subject of hunger. When do you notice it…how do you notice it…What’s your game plan to tackle it??

I’ll admit that I’ve never been a huge “emotional eater”. I mean sure, if I get bored I want to snack but most of the time if I’m upset I usually want to turn to beer, which then kind of turns into wanting to eat…so maybe I am an emotional eater a bit, or just an alcoholic, who knows, but anyways….
There’s a way, and I’m sure it is different for each person, to tell if you are really, truly hungry. And learning what those signs and signals is what keeps you from starving & stuffing your face most of the time.

Personally, I have a pretty set schedule on when I eat (at least during the work week). I have learned over time that I normally get really hungry around 10:30 am and about 3:00 pm so I have developed a plan for the week that seems to work for me. Here’s how it normally goes:

9:00-9:30 Breakfast- I start work at 8 and by the time I get settled in and such this is normally the time I get to go make up my breakfast. Plus I’ve never been the type who can or wants to eat as soon as they get up.

10:30-11:30 Snack- Somewhere in this hour I usually get pretty hungry plus I start day dreaming about lunch so I make sure to have a snack to avoid any binge eating at lunchtime. I try to keep it 2 pts or under.

12:00-1:00 Lunch- We get an hour for lunch and thankfully we live right around the corner so we are able to go home.

3:00-3:30 Snack- I’m usually starting to get hungry again at this point. Knowing that I won’t get home till about 5 and we don’t eat till 6-7ish, I try to have another snack. Again, 2 pts or under if possible

6:30-7:30 Dinner- No matter how hard we try, we always end up eating way later than I want. I’m not a huge night time snacker so eating this late for me really is not such a huge problem, unless of course I don’t have an afternoon snack.

So…how do I know if I’m really hungry or if my mind is just playing a trick on me?? Sometimes…a lot of the times, I don’t! That’s why I find if I can stick to a schedule like the one above and try to set out certain points for certain times of day, I don’t then have to worry about having hunger pains in my stomach, or fighting with my mind to stop thinking about food. Of course, this plan is not fool proof and there are many times where I end up having to really ask myself if I’m hungry or not, but for the most part this seems to work for me.

Image (the horse is ok, no worries)

I made a joke in my meeting about how I eat more now that I’ve lost weight and sometimes I feel like the “fat girl” in the office because I’m always the one eating her snacks and such. But hey…it works, so screw it!
Also of course, there is the biggest trick in the book and that is to DRINK YOUR WATER!! I drink a lot of water through out the day and I really think this helps me to slap hunger in its ugly face.

When I first started Weight Watchers, like most people I was STARVING ALL THE TIME. Or at least I thought I was. In reality I wasn’t but I was just in the learning process of knowing what it was like to really need food to fuel my body.

Two recent examples of ways I’ve learned how my body tells me I’m hungry:

Yesterday I ran 11 miles (longest distance yet people!) and before my run I had a 3 egg white omelet with 1 slice of FF ham & ¼ cup of rf mozzarella cheese. Then during my run I had a GU gel. After I was all done and showered and clothed for the day I sat down to watch some of the Yankee game and found that I was STARVING!! I mean physically starving….tummy growling and making horrible tight pains. I knew that I had not eaten enough or had the proper foods to keep me fueled throughout my workout. Plus it had been almost 4 hours since I’d eaten last…it was time to get some food in my body for sure!

Then there is today. For breakfast I had a banana and a yogurt. Another key to tackling your hunger is to learn what foods work for you and what don’t. I will be honest…a banana and yogurt do not really fill me up. Well, I think they fill me up physically pretty well but mentally not so much. I knew I would be hungry and want a snack. So around 11:00 I thought to myself…”man, I’m not really THAT hungry but I want to eat. Plus I’m taking the late lunch today so I won’t be eating lunch till after 1. I want something crunchy & salty.” So what did I do…I pulled out a bag of WW pizza pretzel thins from my desk and ate away!! Sure, maybe I wasn’t 100% truly hungry but it fixed my mental hunger. And now I know that I won’t be starving when it comes to lunch or raging mad to eat. I fought off what could have been a huge point disaster later on with a 2 pt tackle plan now.

So try different techniques. If you are a WW member, another thing I switch up is my journaling technique. Sometimes I find that when I just write my foods & points down, I obsess over them. And I end up eating just because I know the points are there so when I find that starting to happen, I switch to what I call mental journaling, or maybe to the e-tools journal or another WW-friendly app I have on my phone. Experiment with eating at different times during the day. Try to figure out which foods fill you up and which foods don’t. Where, when and how can you get the most bang for your buck??

I hope everyone is having a great week!! XOXO

Fun Fact-Photo Friday!

So I know I already posted today but I forgot all about fun fact Friday!! And while we are at it...I'll post another "after" photo of myself that was taken today LOL.  My mom wanted to take another one since apparently I look all skinny in real like today LOL.

Fun Facts:
  • I hate any type of fruit in my salad (except plain old fruit salad of course!).  The thought of lettuce with a piece of fruit repulses me.
  • When I was a kid I was OBSESSED with the Karate Kid.  I mean I had the headband and everything.  Every picture of me from the age of 4 until about 6 is me doing the Crane pose.  I even collected bonsai trees.  You can't get much cooler than that. And yes, I can still rock the shit out of a crane pose. :)
Ok...there are mine for today.  Any of yours??

Now onto one more photo of myself for today because like I said.....I am SUPER SUZI!!

Super Suzi

That is how I feel….like a Super Suzi!!

Something happened when I woke up yesterday. Something inside of me transformed and I just knew it was going to be a great day! And for most things considered, it really was. I had many blessings come into my life. I got to start the day off chatting with my best friend, then found out that we got a chance to make a little *MUCH* needed extra cash on the side to help us pay the bills I couldn’t pay last month (oops!), then I got a very touching email from a blog reader whom I hope I get to hear from again….things just fell into place yesterday and normally that just does not happen.

Oh yeah…and I was down 2.2 lbs at my WI. ;) That makes for 79 lbs total. And now I’m only 8 lbs away from my goal weight. How insane!! It really doesn’t feel real.

But back to being Super Suzi….

I don’t know if it’s the new highlights or what but I’ve been feeling super hot. Oh yeah…I got new highlights!! I got more brown ones put in, but this time more chunky so you can actually see them, well not really well in this picture but whatever, lol….

But it’s not just about my hair or looks but also about my body!! I have actually felt FIT and dare I say….thin?? I know I’m not really “thin” but for myself, I actually don’t feel overweight. It’s amazing. I can’t even describe it. Of course, I am more aware of the toning I need to do and I really *really* do need to start working on my arms, but I love that that’s what I am focused on at the moment. It’s not….ewww, look at all this fat! I can proudly say that for the past 2 days I have walked around with a self confidence that I have *NEVER* ever experienced in my life!! I don’t want it to go away!!

So with that said, and because every one keeps yelling at me LOL, I am presenting you with my most recent “after” picture.  I will start from the heaviest to the most recent which was taken yesterday, at 79 lbs down!!

When I started WW'er at 252 lbs. (My heaviest was 261.2 which was about 3 months before I joined):
About 25 lbs lost here....
About 50ish lbs lost....

Still lingering in the 50's-60's lost...
And now the onto the most recent!!  173 lbs & 79 lbs lost....
We took two, LOL....

So there you have it!!  I still have some work to do, but as my dear friend Emily said, I am *so* close I can taste it.  Nom Nom NOM.....

We covered 'hunger' at our WW meeting tonight and I hope to have a blog post up this weekend about that. I hope everyone is having a Fantastic Friday!!  XOXO

Whats for Lunch?

So in yesterday's post I talked about how I tried chick peas for the first time and I absolutely adored them!  Well I have some left over of course so I decided to have them for lunch today.  But oh, what to do with them??  Well this is what you make yourself for lunch when you are poor and are trying to make something filling and yummy with what you have in your house....
What is this you ask??

  • 1 can of light tuna fish in water, drained (2 pts)
  • 1/2 a cup of chick beans out of a can, rinsed (1 pt)
  • 1 tbsp of Kraft Chipolte Mayojust shy of a 1/4 cup of red. fat shredded Mexican cheese (1 pt according to WW scale)
  • 2 packets of Taco Bell Fire sauce (0 pts)

So there you have it!  A strange but very delicious and super filling 5 pt lunch!!  I paired mine up with 6 reduced fat Townhouse crackers for an extra point.  Frank thinks you all will think I am nuts for concocting this....is he right??

Check yourself



Ladies and gentlemen it is time…


If you can recall one of my very first posts, here is where I listed all the things I wanted to set out and accomplish in 2010.  I figured that since we are about 1/2 way through the year, now would be as good of a time as any to get the ole list out and give it a check to see how I’m doing. Lets see shall we…


To lose another 35-45 lbs.- The year is not done yet people!  But from that point, which I was at 51.8 lbs so far, I am now at 76.8 so that makes for 25 lbs lost from January till now!!  I’m only 10.2 lbs away from being at goal weight so I think THIS goal will definitely be met for 2010!!

Train for & run the Philly Rock & Roll 1/2 Marathon-  I’m still doing it.  We are saving for the trip & I’ve been being more consistent with my running.  Whether it’s 2 miles or 8 miles or whatever, I’m trying to get out there more and more.  Plus my 5K time just keeps improving!! 

Go to the Dentist for a cleaning- As most of you know, I had a little emergency with an abscessed tooth that had to be taken care of right away.  I’m proud to say that I took care of that AND I got a full deep cleaning done on my teeth.  I’ve also been taking much better care of them and actually flossing!  I wont be too ashamed to admit that I wasn’t someone who practiced the whole flossing routine daily, but I do now!!

Schedule a physical with my Dr.-  I have one scheduled for August!!  I was kind of hoping to get in sooner but I changed my dr. as well.  I found someone more local who is also a runner.  He has practiced sports medicine and is well known to deal with asthmatic issues.  I’m hoping we will be a good fit together. 

Start getting into Yoga again-  I’m still not doing this weekly, but I have been incorporating some moves into my stretching routine.  Its hard because I don't go to a gym where I can take a class and getting the TV downstairs to myself is next to impossible lately. 

Take a family vacation- Due to financial strains & our trip to Philly, this most likely will not happen this year. :(  I did throw a HUGE party for Frankie’s 40th birthday though.

Learn how to do a pushup!- I haven’t been working on regularly.  I *SO* badly need to and want to start working on my arms.  They are my least favorite body part as of lately.  But I did try to do some pushups today!! This really is my next thing to do on my list.  I *WANT* to be able to do a full pushup!

Go to the eye Dr's- CHECK!!  And as usual, because I am blind, it cost me an insane amount of money.  But this time I also got new glasses too so I guess I can’t complain.  Plus they are ‘Apple Bottom’ glasses…that's right, by the infamous ‘Hot in heeeeere’ Nelly.

Start painting/drawing again- I have not done this really.  I did buy some small canvases and started to paint a little but that slowly went by the way side.  I’ve barely been able to set aside time for this blog, let alone paint. 

No or WAY less Fast Food-  Well, like I said in my original post, I don't eat much of it now anyways.  But I am still in the habit of on Thursday nights either picking something up after my WW meeting or ordering take out.  Though I do think I have gotten better and I am finding myself much more aware now than I was say 4 or 5 months ago.  Its still a work in progress.  

Try one new WW recipe a month- I did this pretty consistently for the first three months, but I haven't tried anything new lately.  Wait…I tried chick peas today for the first time and I LOVE them!!  But I haven't tried any new recipes lately.  This I will work on.  Anyone have any good suggestions??  Maybe for the grill…a summer related meal??

Start a blog- Done of course!  I even have this blog…Twist The Heart!

So there we have it.  I’d have to say that so far I’m pretty proud of myself. I have accomplished a lot in just 6 months.  I’m on the right path and it’s a healthy and happy one, so that’s all that matters!  I know I have things to work on and I still have every intention of doing so!  XOXO

Take That!



Hey everybody!!  I hope you are all having a fabulous weekend.  I’m sad to see it come to such a quick end. :(

So unfortunately my Two 5K’s in 2 Days did not happen.  I woke up late this morning and before rushing around to get ready for the Weight Watchers 5K  decided to give my leader a call since it was pouring rain outside.  She was on her way home.  She said that about 6 people showed up but that the clouds were moving in and moving in quickly so they all decided to nix the plans.  To be honest…this was ok with me because I’m pretty sure I was still drunk from the night before.  ;-)

HOWEVER…I still had some pretty amazing success this weekend.

I PR’d my 5K time at the Paiges Butterfly Race!!!!  I totally did not expect this.  I finished in 31:32 with a pace of 10:09!!!! 

The race was fantastic.  The weather was hot and VERY humid, so that kicked my butt a little.  I am asthmatic so running in those conditions makes my breathing even more difficult.  But the course was a lot of fun.  There were a few bands along the way and lots of supporters and people cheering along the way.

I really was surprised to see that I did so well.  There were a few times where I wanted to stop and try to catch my breath.  I also had a little incident where all of a sudden I had to pee very badly.  It seriously came out of no where's!  And I even went before the race started.  I’m happy to say that I didn't pee myself completely.  ;-)  However this was hilarious to me…I probably looked crazy because towards the end I was literally laughing out loud to myself.  All I could think was “There is the finish line, time to put on your wings Suzi….oh wait, if you run any faster you might pee a lake!!”  HA-HA. 

Can you pick me out??


Just to note…I did beat those kids.  ;)

I’m happy that I stayed strong and managed to run a really great race.  They raised a lot of money and I’m happy that I was able to contribute and be part of such a great cause.  We then spent the rest of the day at The Taste of Syracuse which was a lot of fun.  We got to see The Charlie Daniels Band who totally ROCKED!!!!  It was nice to get out and do something. 

Today I have been uber lazy!!  I haven't even gotten dressed.  I’ve been drinking beer and playing online poker all day, LOL.  I am A-OK with this though.  It feels kind of good to do absolutely nothing.  And for once, Frankie is the one who has to go to the store more than once in one day.  ;-)

But something else pretty incredible happened yesterday too…

I learned something else about myself this weekend…I am much stronger than I give myself credit for sometimes.  I ran into a ghost of my past and instead of letting it drag me down, I fought hard and remembered just how awesome I am.  I remembered that I am a kick ass chick, who looks damn good and feels damn good!!  NO ONE can bring me down or break me… not even you…my biggest, greatest mistake.

Fun Fact Friday

I am going to try and start a new weekly little post here…Fun Fact Friday.  :)

A place for myself and all of you I hope, to share fun little facts about yourself. They don’t need to be weight-loss or exercise related either. Anything I/you feel like sharing at the time.
But in the spirit of the 2-5K’s-In-2-Days event, I will present you with these gems:

-The very first pair of “running” sneakers I bought was Adidas Supernovas. They actually are cross-trainer sneakers but at the time I thought “is there really a damn difference??” Um yeah, there is.

-I’m 100% ashamed to admit this, but whatever…the very first song I listened to on my Ipod during my very first 5K race was The Black Eyes Peas ‘Meet Me Halfway’.

-I hate most physiques that a male runner’s body transforms into. I think they look scrawny and gross and need to eat a cheeseburger or something. Why do most male runners look like this?? I don’t get it.  Please note that I mean a lot of the hardcore, proffesional distance runners.  People who run for a living.  And not all of them look like this, I know. 

So that’s it for today. What about you??

I hope everyone is having a fabulous Friday!! XOXO

Two 5K’s in 2 Days!!



So I’m doing something pretty neat this weekend.  I’m participating in TWO 5K events this weekend!! (When I was telling people at work & at my WW meeting they were like “omg that's crazy!” but it doesn't seem that way to me.  It’s like running 3 miles on two separate days, a little more, and that's not hard at all.  But I guess putting yourself in the “race” format is different and does take more out of you so I guess I will give myself some credit here.)

Sunday as I’ve mentioned is the Weight Watchers Walk It! Challenge and my WW’er group is getting together to walk/run at our local parkway. 

Well on Saturday Frank and I had plans to go see The Charlie Daniels Band at The Taste of Syracuse.  We really can’t wait!!  Not only for all the great music but also all the fabulous food sampling we get to do and of course…BEER!!

Anyways, there is a great 5K run that same morning, in the same area called Paiges Butterfly Run where all proceeds go to fighting pediatric cancer.  This 5K race is pretty much the biggest 5K in my area.  It attracts a lot of runners, not only because of the great cause but also because of the Taste Of Syracuse event that takes place right afterwards.

I wasn’t planning on running another race anytime soon but I think that the amount of runners that this race draws will be great experience for me and will be able to help prepare me better for running with a larger group coming up with my 1/2 marathon.  Plus, it will feel great to know that I have participated in this wonderful local race and have given to a great cause.  Also the route is a bit different this year I guess and the total distance is 3.4 so that should be interesting. 

And I might just feel a little less guilty about eating all those tasty treats & drinking all those frothy beverages come later on in the day ;)

Depending on how I feel come Sunday morning will depend on whether I run or walk at the Weight Watcher 5K.  Part of me will feel guilty and selfish if I am the only one running so I might just stick it out and walk with my fellow members, but we will see.

So there we have it kids…Two 5K’s in 2 Days!!


Today was also my WI and I was down 1.4 lbs!!  That’s 76.8 lbs gone FOREVER!! I’m now 10.2 lbs away from goal weight.  How exciting!!

I didn’t get to stay for my meeting since I had to go sign up for Saturday’s race but today's topic was about points.  I think that Sheryl aka Bitch Cakes did a great job posting about the meeting topic here.  So if you haven't already checked it out, make sure you do!! 

Have a great weekend everyone if I don't get a chance to post until after my races!! XOXO

I like to move it…


…move it!!…sometimes :/

This past Thursday at my Weight Watcher meeting we talked about Activity.  At first I kind of sighed because I started to think about how I had not been “active” for close to 3 weeks.  Of course I knew that this was not 95% by my own choice, but it was still depressing. 

And thats when I woke up…it was DEPRESSING that I wasn’t able to workout at all.  It was really getting me in a funk!  For the first time in my life I was actually miserable about *not* being able to work out…WHO AM I?!?!  If you remember my story on how I started running then you know that not working out was my forte.  I would have rather chewed on nails than run for a minute straight.  Now I was missing running a mile or two or three or four!

The thing I really enjoyed about this topic is the way my leader went about approaching the term “activity”.  She was not Ms. GI Joe up there saying “run run run! walk walk walk! MOVE MOVE MOVE!”  Instead she was showing us that *anything* amount of activity that we normally wouldn't do, or even things we do but normally wouldn’t consider activity DO count!!  Simple things like tending to your garden, doing the laundry, cleaning your bathroom…these things add up people!!  Just for shits and giggles one time, I looked up “sanding wood” on the activity tracker and found out that I earned probably 2 AP’s for sanding the bench Frankie made me.  It’s only on there for sanding the floors, but I went buck wild with an electric hand sander for about 45 minutes.  Anyways…30 minutes on the elliptical is also 2 AP’s…catch my point??

This is also another great way I like to get my “activity” in:


Now, this doesn't mean I’m about to eliminate my runs or throw out my bike and stick to washing dishes…yuck!  And here is the reason why…CARDIO!  We need it, and we *do* learn to love it.  Someone at my meeting made a good point and that was that ‘if you don't sweat, it’s not working out'…of course we all corrected her by saying that the Pool is a great workout and you most likely wont sweat much since you are in water LOL.  We like to bust each others balls sometimes.  But I think what she was trying to remind us about was to not only think about our cardio workouts but also about what other “activities” we can change up or put into our routine because remember, these things all add up.

Maybe it’s parking your car farther away at the grocery store, taking the stairs instead of the elevator (I know, you’ve heard all of these before…I’m not that clever), or what I suggested in my meeting and that is that now that I’m thinner I have more space in the bed, so therefore I move around more in my sleep, therefore burning more calories!  Like my logic?? ;)  It’s science.

Making the little steps will lead you to making the bigger steps before you know it.  When I started running I could not even run straight for 30 seconds without stopping or feeling like I was being tortured.  Today I can run 4-6 miles easily and know that physically I’m able to make it close to 11.  I just keep making those extra little steps to get to that bigger step towards reaching the 13.1 mark. 

Another thing to try and do is to *NEVER* compare what you do to what others do.  There is a big difference between admiration and jealousy.  I see so many people out there who try so hard to meet goals that they think are popular or will get them more fame online or within their own little community.  You’re neighbor can hike 16 miles and you can barely walk up that hill by your house??  Well guess what…someone out there can’t walk up that hill!!  Be proud of the things *YOU* accomplish and that you set out to do.  We all wish we could do things better, stronger and longer than we are doing them right now.  Just try not to get caught up in all the hype!  I, like most other runners, subscribe to ‘Runners World’ magazine and I drool over the new fancy gadgets and what have you that I know I could never afford or would be pointless to have really.  I follow some of the highly visited running blogs and think they are fantastic as well.  Hell one of my favorite bloggers is Skinny Runner as most of you know, and while I envy her ability to run countless of miles at ease, her goal of running 6 marathons in 6 months (seriously…woman is fucking sick!  But she did it and I could not be more proud of her!!) is just not a goal I would ever want to have for myself.  I would be happy with just being able to run 6 miles with ease 3-4 times a week.  There is difference, in my mind anyways, between letting others success and determination motivate and push you, or letting it put envy into your heart and workouts.  Just something to keep in mind my friends.

So with that said, I will leave you all with this…

I know that a lot of you are Weight Watcher members yourselves but those of you who are not, this Sunday, June 6th, is Weight Watchers 5K Walk It! challenge.  I will be participating by meeting my fellow Weight Watcher members at our local park that morning.  I still haven't decided if I’m just going to run it (most likely by myself) or if I want to actually try to just walk it with the others.  We’ll see.  Either way though, if you can, try to do *some* type of activity on this day.  Whether it be to go for a walk around your neighborhood, or just weed out your garden…any type of movement is better than NO movement!! 

My moment of self-praise:

-This was the first week I have incorporated exercise back into my life since I got sick.  I managed to do 30 minutes on the Elliptical on Saturday morning.  Then later that day walk a trail and do some canoeing with Frankie.  Sunday I worked on the flowers in front of my townhouse (its supposed to count as *something* right?!).  Monday I ran 3 miles and today I ran 4 miles.

No matter how much time you may take off, small or large, you can *ALWAYS* get right back into it.  The only thing stopping you is *you*. And more likely than not, it will be far much easier than you expect. 


*Special Note:  If you for some reason have some medical reason why you can not be highly active, please do not let that get you down! Getting the rest you need to heal and recoup is the best thing you can do!  This note really goes out to my dear friend Bethany who just had surgery on her hip.  She is very down about not being able to workout at all and is in much pain.  I am constantly thinking of her and wishing her the best in her healing process.  And I just *KNOW*…I really, really know, that she will come out of this stronger and better than ever!!  Your time will come my friend. :)

Is this thing on??


Hello everybody!! I (again) apologize for such the long absence. I have just in the past few days started to feel better after battling the infection from hell and after settling back in after throwing the big party…which turned out great by the way!! Frankie enjoyed it very much and that’s all that mattered to me. Right after the party was when I had to procedure done to get my tooth out and have the infection cleaned out. The healing process is still happening but I’m feeling *so* much better. I’ve been getting back into my better eating habits…of course there have been a few slipups along the way, but I’m getting there. And yesterday I had my first run in almost 3 weeks!! I ran 3 miles….and this was AFTER drinking 6 Bud 55’s, LMAO. Am I hardcore or what?? I don’t lie when I say those things are like water to me. I drank a 12 pack a couple of nights over the long weekend and could not even get the start of a good buzz, but hey, for 1 pt I will take it because I don’t drink to get drunk. I drink the beer because I enjoy the taste of an ice cold beer. If I wanted to get drunk I’d be drinking Jack Daniels and Diet Pepsi’s for a living. ;-)

Anywhooooo….I want to go into why my posting is so scarce at times, and who knows, maybe some of you can help me with this. So here are my main reasons why I don’t post as much as I should or want to:

1. I compare a lot. I don’t know why I do this, because honestly, I don’t do it in any other form of my life. I don’t compare my clothes or my look or anything else to what other people are doing/wearing but for some reason I compare my blog to others. I look at some peoples blogs and think “WOW! Look at all their followers. That must be why they post so much.” Or “MAN! Look at those really nice, long, personal, in-depth posts. They are so inspirational.” Or even “HOLY! Look at that person who has posted a blog topic 3 freaking times today!! Is that their job??” A lot of the times I think that my ½ assed little blog really doesn’t make a difference in the big weight loss blogging world and that no one would care if I post or not because you can all just go to one of these other blogs that are way more fabulous than mine. Sounds silly huh??

2. I don’t comment enough on other people’s blogs so in a way I feel guilty for putting myself out there and having them comment on mine. I can’t even begin to tell you how many of *your* guys blogs I read on a daily basis are seriously such an inspiration to me…but I seriously never get the time to comment on your own blog posts. I may give you all the congratulations and what have you on Twitter, but sitting down and commenting on them when I read them is a habit I just can’t seem to fall into and this makes me feel like an awful, selfish person. I don’t want people to think that I put all of this stuff out here to get all this amazing feedback and congratulations back and not want to pay it all forward. I’m not a hoarder when it comes to praise, I swear!! So sometimes I feel it’s just less selfish seeming if I don’t post at all.

3. Time. I work from 8-4:30. When I get home, I usually try to workout, cook dinner for myself, the man and the boy…this is usually all accomplished between 6:30-7:30. By that time I am whooped and now with Summer approaching and all this great weather, I want to just go outside and enjoy the sunshine while it is here….I live in Central New York, believe me people, we *cherish* moments in the sun! Also a favorite hobby of mine is to sit and watch the New York Yankees play with Frankie. Sure, I could write while the game is on, but my attention is only ½ there. And by the time the game is over, or we are done watching one of our programs, it’s about time to go to bed. I do not make any special time for writing, and this is definitely something that I should probably work on.

4. I’ve talked about this before and this is my constant thought to make all of my posts “meaty” and worth something. It shouldn’t matter whether my post is 1 sentence, or 1 page long….I should just post it. If it’s on my mind I should just write it!! I put so much pressure on posts and I really have to stop doing that. I’m not being judged or graded here…at least I hope not. But a lot of the times too I feel like I’m repeating myself and I can’t seem to find anything exciting or entertaining to talk about. I need to start writing down some topics and really work on some of the suggestions you guys have given me in the past.

So those are just some of the reason I can think of right now. I also know that I need to work on refreshing the look of this site, because like most things in my life, I have OCD when it comes to wallpapers and designs and to be honest, I can’t believe I have kept this layout for so long! Also my dear friend Emily has reminded me that my “recent” progress picture is quite outdated now and I need to update that. Thank you my dear!! Soooo maybe by revamping the site a little bit it will help to motivate me to be more active with it.

Being more pro-active with my blog is definitely a high priority on my list. I truly do enjoy doing this and I think if I take some of the pressure off I could really learn to enjoy it more and like everything in life, if I continuously try to make it a habit, then eventually posting will become a habit.

I want to thank all of you again for sticking by me and hopefully some of this makes sense. I feel like there was more I wanted to say but it’s at a loss to me right now. I cheated and wrote this up while I’m at work. ;-) But I only did that because tonight Frankie is going to play guitar and my plan after I work out and eat my dinner is to sit down and write a nice blog post about ‘Activity’ tonight!! It was our topic at my WW’ers meeting this past week and with the Weight Watchers 5K coming up this Saturday and my recent hiatus from exercise, I have a lot I’d like to say about being ACTIVE!!

I hope everyone had a fabulous Memorial Day weekend!!!! XOXO
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