A Christmas Miracle


Well folks, this isn’t exactly a miracle but yesterday I gave myself the best gift that one could ever ask for…the gift of health.

As of yesterday, December 23rd 2010 I became a Lifetime member at Weight Watchers!!

To reach Lifetime I had to achieve my weight loss goal (which I did & the post about that is here) and then maintain that weight for 6 weeks.  During the maintenance period I went up and down a few lbs but I always stayed below my goal weight. 

As of yesterday I have lost a total of 99.6 lbs!!!! 

Now I only have to weigh-in once a month and as long as I am not 2 lbs over my goal weight I will no longer have to pay for meetings. Nice!

I can’t believe I am now a Lifetime member of Weight Watchers.  I never really dreamt about this until a few months ago and it still seems all so surreal to me.  I know though that I have worked really, REALLY hard for this and I deserve this accomplishment!!

I’ve been on the weight loss journey now for 2 years and I’d be lying if I said that I’m not somewhat relieved to not have to focus on the “weight loss” part as much.  This doesn’t mean that I stop doing what I’ve been doing though.  I *NEVER* want to go back to the “bigger” me or partake in those behaviors again!  I still have to make healthy choices and track my food.  I have been using all these amazing tools that Weight Watchers has provided me with and I plan to continue using them for the rest of my life! 

But, I look forward to the little things like maybe not having to worry about retaining so much water on Thursdays or only having really light meals so the scale doesn’t blow up or anything. I would say that this means I can drink beer on Wednesday nights now but lets be honest, it never stopped me in the first place.  But I guess this means I can drink at lunch on Thursday’s now Winking smile

Frankie came to my meeting to see me get my award.  I can’t even begin to describe how happy that made me.  It really meant a lot to me that he came.  Afterwards we went out to Applebee’s to have a couple beers and split some appetizers.  Here I am with my very first beer as a Lifetime member…

I don’t know if I’m going to drink that beer, or going to Hulk smash it & kill someone…what’s with my face?!?!


And here are some photos of me from Tuesday night at the bar (Frank plays darts).  Rocking the skinny jeans and my new boots….I’ll have more pictures of the boots later.



I hope that everyone has a very Merry Christmas!!  I leave you with a picture of my fabulous Christmas tree…


What did you ask Santa for??

Oooh Yeah, Shake it!

The conversation started like this….

Mom- “I saw one of those Shake Weight thingy’s at the store. You know, the thing in that video that you guys were watching in the office, on that South Park episode.”
Me- “Oh yeah…that shit was funny.”
Mom- “Yeah I almost bought it for you, as a joke of course.”
Me- “I would TOTALLY rock the Shake Weight if you bought me one.”

Fast forward a couple of weeks and this puts us in the middle of Walmart. My mom had some things she had to pick up there and she wanted to get out of the house & walk around a bit. She still isn’t cleared to drive or anything so I took her there and figured I could pick up a few Christmas gifts myself.

We are walking by the “fitness” section when all of a sudden she yells…”THERE IT IS!” Turns the cart around like Nascar thunder and throws a Shake Weight into the cart…

So ladies and gentleman, the Shake Weight training has begun!

Now, I understand that this product is most likely a gimmick and the odds of it working might be slim to none, but what do I have to lose by trying right?? Nothing but my jiggly arm flab people!! Plus, I didn’t have to spend my hard earned $20 on it so I’m not really losing out in that department.

According to the makers of this product, with a 6 minute a day workout you will see an amazing difference in your arms, shoulders and chest. It comes with a nifty little 6 minute DVD that you just pop in and do real quickly.

So far I’ve done it three times and while it’s not super difficult (for someone who exercises regularly), I can definitely feel the burn. It’s funny because after doing it the first day which was Sunday, I thought for sure that the next morning my arms would be sore but actually it was my CORE that was killing me!! When I did the 6 minutes the second day, it was definitely a little bit more painful.

I’m giving it a month. Sunday, December 12th was my first day and I took measurements of my biceps and did a flabby check. This means of course moving my arm back and forth and watching the jiggle ripple around…this is no scientific measurement so you will just have to take my word on if it changes or not.

Now I’ve read all the reviews about how this is just a piece of trash & there are much better arm exercises you can do. I’m aware of this. I don’t think this measly little 2 ½ pound weight is going to give me Michele Obama arms. BUT…I own dumbbells people and you know how often I pick them up?? Barely ever. If you’ve been following me for a while now you know that I hate my arms but I can never seem to get stuck on a regime of working on them. Well the Shake Weight makes me WANT to work on my arms. So at the very least, maybe it will lead to me doing more and more upper body work.  Or, if I am lucky, I will be as happy as this guy is....

So we will see in a month!! And who knows…if there are any good results, maybe I'll buy one of these puppies and we can have a little giveaway and one of you lucky readers can make ridiculous face and noises too!

There’s a big part of me that wants to make my own instructional video, with the ooooh and aaaah’s and everything. I mean, look at how happy I already am...

Don’t fear the food!

I feel like its been forever since I posted last.  I guess in a way it has been. 

First off, thank you to everyone for the well wishes and support for my moms surgery.  I’m happy to report that the surgery went well and she was released from the hospital last Saturday.  Basically my days since then have been filled with taking care of her and helping her out around her house & with her doggie.  All while doing that I’ve had to try to keep up at work and take care of my own household.  This has left very little “chill” time, let alone time to blog.  But I’m trying to get back into the swing of things.

These past two weeks have brought about big changes in the Weight Watcher world.  I know I posted quickly about preparing ourselves for change and well folks, the change is here!!

I originally planned to do a big ole’ post about how amazing the new Point Plus plan is.  A list of its pro’s and con’s and all of that jazz.  But with it being about two weeks out, there are already NUMEROUS blog posts out there telling you all about that…So…I’ve been lurking.

I’ve been lurking back these past two weeks.  Following the Points Plus program and kind of keeping to myself about how I think it’s working.  I’ve been reading others blogs, tweets and conversations with each other.  I’ve been listening to the members at my Weight Watcher meeting and I listen to a lady stop me in the middle of the supermarket to express her fears about the new program.

Fear…that’s a word a hear a lot.

But I also hear another word…Joy. 

Can those two words possibly coexist within the same program??  Of course they can!!  
Think about the first time you tried something…was there fear present??  Most likely, yes.  Even if you are someone who claims to fear little in life, there is always that sense of “oh, but what if” lying in there somewhere.  It’s completely normal and I think that’s what helps to fuel our drive and passion. 

The lady in the supermarket said to me “But Suzi, I’m too scared to eat! The points are so much higher!”  I was in a rush to get back to my mother so I just kind of listened to her and nodded but later on that night I really got thinking about what she said.  Because she wasn’t the first person I heard that from.  When I first put that Weight Watcher bagel and Weight Watcher Cream Cheese into my Points Plus tracker, I wanted to cry.  A favorite breakfast of mine that was always 3 points was now 6.  How is that NOT scary??

Last week I was sure I was going to gain.  I was feeling it all week and my scale at home was being stubborn.  Come Tuesday night I was really feeling defeated.  It was the first full week on the new Points Plus program and already I was hearing about everyone having great loses.  Now technically, I shouldn’t be worrying about having a loss since I am in maintenance, but I didn’t want to gain! (I was down 1.6, putting me at my lowest ever of 96.6 lbs lost...weighing in at 155.4)  So I sat back and I lurked on myself…

Was I really eating more??  Was I really drinking more??  Sure, I was over my points everyday but as we all know, that was due to my beer intake…but was I really drinking MORE beer?  NO!  Was I really eating MORE than I normally have been? NO!  Sure, my bagel & cream cheese breakfast is more points, but I am ALLOWED more points.  Sure, my beer is more points, but I’m still drinking the same amount now as I have these past 2 years while losing 96+ lbs. 

The beer is still beer.  Weight Watchers can but 100 Points Plus on a 12 ounce can (oh god, please don’t!) but unless the fine folks over at Anheuser Busch change the actual nutritional values of Bud 55…I should not fear them!

I’m not just talking about the increase of alcohol here guys…I’m talking about looking at the big picture.  If you are feeling fear, sit back and lurk on yourself.  Look over your tracker (you better be tracking!), take a look at your activity, think about your habits…what can you change??  What do you need to change?? 

For me…I noticed that I was dependent on a lot of 100 calorie snacks and 1 point breads.  I wasn’t adding nearly enough fruits and vegetables into my diet because I didn’t want to “waste” points on them.  Now I’ve found myself swapping out those nutrition-less snacks for the fruits I’ve always loved…and I’m trying new fruits!! (I will post about that later!)

I still eat bread…I still have a bag of 100 cal popcorn (was 1 point, is now 3 points plus) as a snack a few times a week…I still have 2 slices of Wonder SmartWhite bread for lunch…I still have my whole grain flat out wheat wraps… And I have them without fear, because I realize that I’m not eating them any MORE than I did before.  Just because my bagel & cream cheese is now 6, doesn’t mean I’m going to gain 10 lbs.  You don’t have to give up the things you love or the staples you are used to (hello sandwich thins).  You just have to track them & make the rest of your day work around them.  

You have to trust Weight Watchers!  You have to put your fears into their hands and know that they would not steer you wrong!  You have to not only look at the program, but look at yourself and see that you know what are good decisions and what are bad.  And all you can do is hope that you make the good one 90% of the time.

Sorry this post got kind of long.  And I’m sorry if it was boring…especially for you non Weight Watchers.  I promise to brighten the mood up this week and all my posts wont be just about the new Weight Watchers program.  I have some exciting things to share…such as a few items I got this week as early Christmas gifts Smile.  So I promise there will be pictures on this blog again soon. 

Thanks for your patience with me and thanks for being here!!  If you guys haven't gotten my Christmas present yet, that’s ok.  You still have a couple weeks. 

Take the lead



*NOTE: I wrote this blog post the other night…after many beers.  I haven't proof-read it nor do I plan to.  This is a touchy subject so I am just going to post it as is. You might call me selfish after this, but I believe in loving yourself most, otherwise no one can ever really love *you*….. 


I’ve heard about a lot of people who have trouble putting themselves first.  I guess in a way that’s hard for everyone on some certain level.  You don’t need to have children or a husband or a busy home to put yourself last on the list.  There are many times when it can be you, and you alone, but still you manage to put yourself last on the “take care of” list.

I’m an only child.  I grew up in a broken household with many, many problems.  Some quite serious and some that would leave a few deep scars.  I am selfish by nature and I think this is one of the reasons why children of my own are just not in my cards.  I am a “ME” kind of gal and I never apologize for it.

At the same time though, I am an absolute giver.  I want to help the world.  I want nothing more than to make the people in my life feel loved, wanted and needed.  Seeing them sad breaks my heart and I will not stop until I see them smile.  Sometimes…this gets the best of me. 

I want to talk about this because right now, the idea of “putting myself first” is being put to the test.

As many of you know, I am in the middle of the “maintenance” period after reaching goal.  Maintenance is 6 consecutive weeks of weigh-ins and at the end of it I have to be within 2 lbs of my goal weight to reach “Lifetime” status at Weight Watchers.  This is the ultimate status and is the true goal on this journey. 

If I meet this, I will become a Lifetime member on December 23rd…what better Christmas present could I ever give myself??  There is none that could even come close to comparing.

But I feel as though I am put to the ultimate test…

During these 6 weeks I have to deal with the following:

  • Holidays…Thanksgiving and Christmas are all within my maintenance period.  One of my meeting members pointed out that I get more points during this time, LOL.  But still…this is a very hard time.  Especially since my meetings are on Thursdays and most of these holidays fall ON Thursdays and I cant attend my regular meeting.
  • Family issues…My mother is having surgery this week.  Thursday to be exact.  Now this isnt as extensive of a surgery as before.  I wasn’t blogging at the time but last year my mother had very extensive brain surgery.  Half of her skull had to be removed and replaced with plastic due to brain tumors.  This surgery coming up is just a complete hysterectomy so while its not as invasive, it is still an issue since this is dealing with a possible cancer and it has her being laid up for a few weeks poses some issues.  I am the only person she has around so this puts quite a burden on my shoulders.
  • Weight Watchers decided to change NOW!!  Are you serious??  LOL…now I know I just wrote about how change is good, and I really do believe that.  But I also know that I said I was scared and this is mostly because this is the SCARIEST part of my journey so far on Weight Watchers.  I now only have FOUR WEEKS to reach lifetime status and I have to learn to adapt to a whole new program in that short period of time, all the meanwhile maintaining my weight???? 

This is one sick fucking joke.

OK…but truth be told…this is where we grow.  This is where we become stronger human beings and where we win our biggest battles. 

It would be easier for me to give up or call a time out.  It would be easier for me to blame my mothers surgery, Weight Watchers new plan, the holidays…for a reason to take a “pause”.  But I can’t do that with a clear conscious.  I HAVE done that before and I know that all you do is come out of the other side feeling worse and even more horrible, feeling guilty.  I can’t make excuses for poor behavior based on the elements going on around me…they do NOT rule me nor control me. 

Just as this Thanksgiving…there was no meeting so I had to go a day before.  There is no if, ands or buts here…I have to weigh-in for 6 weeks and a row, so I found another place to do so (and I became Dr. Suees).  I didn’t use the excuse of “the holidays” and neither should you!!

This Thursday (12/2) is a very hard day for me.  It is my mothers surgery but it is also the day where I am supposed to go to my meeting and learn all about the new Weight Watchers programs.  Now, I am an e-tools subscriber so I will get an idea through there, but I have already gone over my dilemma with my leader, and my mother. 

On Wednesday I will go and get weighed-in a day early,..again (UGH!).  This is just incase something happens and the surgery takes longer or what not, but I wont have to worry about missing my weigh-in this week.  BUT…at the same time I have expressed to my mother how important Thursday’s meeting is to me and considering that we will be in the hospital by 6AM…she thinks I will be fine to make it to my meeting by 5:00 PM.  We will play it by ear and see how the day goes,

The point I am trying to make is that when something is important to you…I mean REALLY important, you make no excuses for it.  You don’t try to cover it up, hide it, or push it to the side.  The people most important in my life know how serious Weight Watchers is to me and how it is who I am and I will NEVER give that up.  I will never again put it on the back burner to let life step in because THIS IS my life.  Me saying “No I’m sorry I can’t do Weight Watchers right now” is the same as my mother telling her doctor she wont have this surgery right now because of the holidays…you have to do what is right for you.  Not everyone will agree with this, but that’s ok.  I don’t do this to please anybody fucking else but myself.  I have no regrets and I have no shame.  I am awesome because I make myself that way and I let nothing stand in my way!!    

Every moment of every day is a choice.  As long as you stay true to what you want and remember to put yourself first, then it will be good choice!  If you don’t put love for yourself and your happiness first, can you really expect others to put love and happiness around you??  You cant buy love or happiness…you earn it. 

Love yourself most, because you are the only person you can truly count on…and that’s not a bad thing. 



I realize that not all of you are Weight-Watcher members, so please bear with me on this post.  But I thought it was important to express how I feel about the upcoming changes that the North America Weight Watcher members will be seeing, as soon as tomorrow if you are an e-tools subscriber!

Honestly…I’m excited about it!  Sure, it is scary in some aspects.  Any kind of change is.  Especially when something works so darn well…why change it right??

Well, science changes and evolves all the time.  And one of the reasons why Weight Watchers works is because its based on science…scientific studies of the body AND mind!  That’s why Weight Watchers isn't a diet…it’s a lifestyle.  Corny I know, and I sound like a paid advertisement, but it really is true! (and no I’m not being paid, although with Christmas right around the corner, I really wish I was!)

Don’t you like the idea of knowing that Weight Watcher keeps up with these changes and finds ways to adapt to them to make sure that program does indeed still work. 

We had some skeptics in my meeting about the new changes and I made a point I came across while seeing a commercial the other day for sugary cereals…Fruit Loops, Apple Jacks….NOW WITH ADDED FIBER!!  Think about all the foods that now have “added fiber”.  If you are a Weight Watcher member you know that Fiber is very important in calculating how many points a certain item of food is…usually the more fiber, the lower the points. 

The science of food has changed. so therefore that tells me that the plan we are on now may not still work as well in 5 or 10 years.  So I’m glad the people at Weight Watchers got to work to make sure this well oiled machine they call the “Points Program” still works!!

I’m sure they will be some flaws and some things we hate about the updated program.  Nothing is ever 100% to our liking…especially to us woman.  I mean “WE” are perfect as beings…but you men already know that…it’s science.

When Weight Watchers introduced the “Flex Points” program, I thought it was a load of crap.  And honestly…I still kind of do.  It’s just not for me.  But I was thankful for the set-points it gave to some foods.  There’s a silver lining in everything.

My leader Cathleen asked us a great question…Do you trust Weight Watchers??

If you are a member, the answer is YES!  If you didn’t, you wouldn’t go to your meetings or follow the program online.  And unless you like wasting money I’m pretty sure you wouldn’t be throwing away those hard earned George Washington’s on the program each week or month.

If you are really terrified try to think of these things…

  • You are NOT ALONE!  Think of how many people you have out there who will be going through this with you.  There is going to be support ALL around.  We are all going to need each other!
  • Try to not think of this as a “new program”…because is reality, it’s not.  It’s just an UPDATED version. 
  • If you are stuck in a rut or a plateau, this might just be the kick you need to start being a fat-blasting-machine again!
  • If you are like me and are at goal and/or lifetime, maybe you are confused or upset about the fear of the program getting boring now that you are not in the losing weight phase anymore…well now we have something to spice it up and work on again!!

There’s been a lot of talk about what the changes will be and I’m trying to not pay any attention them.  But I am pretty sure I already know what they are…Beer and cheese are now 0 points and for every mile you run you earn 10 activity points. 

Winking smile

Happy Thanksgiving


It’s been a busy week so I’m sorry for the lack of posting.  I just wanted to take a minute to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving!!

I am so thankful to have all of you in my life…even if its just on this here blog and/or on Twitter.  All of your support, encouragement and wisdom makes me a very grateful woman and gives me many things to be thankful for in my life.


I hope you guys enjoy your holiday!!  Some of my own personal advise on how I deal with the holiday-

  1. I bring my own Fat Free gravy with me to dinner.  I like gravy a lot and by using the fat free version I save a bundle of calories.
  2. Pick one or two items you really want to indulge in.  For me, that’s usually mashed potatoes.  Then just be sure to fill up extra on the good stuff like veggies & white turkey meat.
  3. Have at least one “safety dish”.  Make at least one thing that you know you can have and not have to worry about feeling guilty when you eat it. 
  4. ENJOY!!  It’s one day people…sure, you can do some damage in one day but just enjoy TODAY.  Enjoy the moments with your family (or try your damn best to), enjoy the spirit of the season, enjoy the smells, enjoy the food….semi sparingly Winking smile 

I am off to go run my own little turkey trot 5K…then cook up a couple dishes to bring to Frankie’s parents house.  Have a wonderful and very happy Thanksgiving!!

I leave you with these funnies…


A couple Tips & Tricks

So many people, here on the blog, twitter and in real life ask me what I’ve done to lose weight. The obvious answer is “Weight Watchers” of course, but that doesn’t really help people out.

I don’t have the secret recipe to losing weight. If I did I would be paying someone right now to write this blog post and I would be lying out on the deck of a yacht (does that make sense? I know nothing about yachts or boats) drinking myself an ice cold Bud Select 55 all the while laughing at all you suckers who are reading this while your at work (HI BOSS!).

Anywho…There are some things that I live by and just do on a regular basis so I decided to just throw some of the ideas that came across my mind into this here list to share with you all…Enjoy!

  • Drink your H20!! Seriously people, at first it won’t seem like it makes much of a difference…until a couple months down the road when you go a day without drinking at least 20 ounces. I have a SIGG water bottle which I fill up at work at least 4 times a day. The bottle hold 1.0L (so about 34 ounces
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Find drinking water difficult?? Well are you finding drinking soda as difficult????? It’s a mental game people…GET OVER IT!! Suck it down and shut up and in time, you will find you love it, believe me. Add some lemon, lime or even an orange slice to help you out at first. Try it ice cold & at room temperature. If you can make drinking soda work for you, you can make drinking water work as well.
  • Keep staple foods in your house. There are some items that I always make sure are around. Items like: Arnolds Multigrain Thins, Laughing Cow Cheese Wedges, beer, baby carrots, light ranch, 100 calorie almond packs, lean deli meats (turkey & ham), eggs, reduced fat cheese slices for sandwiches, beer, at least 1 can of Progresso Light Soup, a bag of Alexia brand fries in the freezer, oatmeal, beer. With these items I know that I can always make a sandwich and have some soup & a beer… and that’s the meal that keeps on giving folks.
  • Keep salads fun and exciting! Some people might gasp when they hear that I still put cheese, bacon bits, eggs & creamy dressing on my salad…but I don’t care! I’m not about to eat a bunch of dry leaves. That’s just not going to satisfy me and one thing I really believe it…If it’s not going to satisfy you then why eat it. Instead I found healthier options of those goodies. Like Cabot 50% (they even sell a 75%) reduced fat brick of sharp cheese which I dice up into cubes and then weigh out the 1 oz portion on my handy dandy Weight Watchers electronic food scale. I found Hormel 50% reduced fat real bacon crumbles (1 pt for 1 tbsp) that I use sometimes. I use light ranch dressing. Fat free is just gross!! But ranch dressing is something I would never and could never give up. Oh, and I also add chick peas!!
  • Give yourself a damn day off!! This is probably my #1 advise, honestly. Also I’m pretty sure that it will be the #1 thing that when I start working for Weight Watchers, they will tell me to not say LOL. But seriously….I have always given myself that “one day”. Usually for me, it’s Friday or Saturday…of hell, sometimes even both! Sometimes I chose to track what I eat & drink on these days and sometimes…GASP…I do not!! OMG, how do I survive right??
Listen, you can’t think of this like a diet. THIS IS A LIFESTYLE CHANGE! You can’t think “oh well once I get to goal I can start buying Doritos again”…it doesn’t work like that. So what are you going to do…swear off Doritos for the rest of your life?? NO! You have to still enjoy the things you love and desire when it comes to food, you just have to enjoy these things LESS OFTEN and in smaller quantities. You have to play around with it a little bit but after awhile you will learn where the balance is.

  • Pick your food battles. For example…My ramen soup battle Wednesday night. It’s 8 pts for one package of Ramen Chicken Noodle Soup. I was craving it! So I made it, took two bites & said this is *SO* not worth it. It’s not that it tasted bad cause everyone loves a little “crack head soup” every now and then, but the salt was just too much for me. Especially for a night before weigh-in. So instead I made a can of Progresso Light Italian meatball soup (2.5 pts), a turkey (1) bacon (1 pt…used 1 tbsp of those bacon pieces) cheddar (1 pt, I used 1 slice of rf) melt on a piece of wonder smart white bread (1 pt for 2 slices) and a can of Coors Light (2 pts). So for an extra ½ a point I got to have MORE food & a can of beer, compared to one measly package of Ramen noodle soup.
Sometimes weight loss is a total brain game and you really need to put your thinking cap on. I once had a post about “thinking outside the box” and that kind of thinking is something that really has contributed to my success.

  • 5 days too much to workout? I gotcha. You’re not the “athletic gym-going” type. I gotcha. Work out 3 days a week then and stop making excuses. Do something. Anything. Don’t like walking on a treadmill…try treadmill dancing. Of course I have a treadmill in my bedroom so it’s not as embarrassing as doing it in the public place but jam out those tunes and start walk-dancing away!! Don’t want to hop on a piece of equipment (Oh boy!...who doesn’t want to hop on a piece of equipment ;) well then pick up a workout DVD! Don’t want to do a workout dvd….clean your house. House already clean? Mess it up and clean it again! There is NO excuse for not getting up and moving a little bit more than usual for ATLEAST 30 minutes, 3 days a week.

  • Cheese lovers…if you are like me you can’t bring a brick of cheese into the house without eating it all in one sitting, I have an alternative that works sometimes. Buy some Townhouse reduced fat crackers, take one serving (6 crackers for 1 pt) and take one wedge of Laughing Cow Cheese (1 pt) and VOILA! Cheese & crackers….sorta. You’ll still end up eating a brick of cheese sometimes, but with this light swap it will happen a lot less often.
Theres so many other tips and I'm sure I will think of more after I post this, but these are some of the ones that I think relate to the everyday aspects of this journey.  They wont help everyone, but they sure help me!  So who knows...maybe they are just more of  little reminders really or kick in butts to help remind you the most important tip of them all....


Smaller Size=Smaller Bottles

Ladies and gentlemen, let me fill you in on a very important piece of advice that you may need to carry along with you on the weight loss journey…

As you lose weight your tolerance for alcohol will decrease…who would thunk?? :/

For example…the 252 lb Suzi could drink an entire 1.75 liter bottle (yes folks, thats the BIG bottle) of wine in one day and just feel slightly shitty the next day.  You know that semi-hungover stage where its not like you are going to run a marathon or anything but a little Tylenol and H2O are all you need to get by.

HOWEVER…the 159 lb Suzi CANNOT handle that amount of wine anymore!!
It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure this out.  But it does take an entire night of puking 2, 3, 5 times along with a day of work missed to realize that my body just cannot stand this much alcohol anymore (should it ever really??). 

I tried to put on my big girl panties and make it through the day, but I just couldn’t.  I left for home around 10:00.  I was physically shaking so bad that I couldn’t even type. I’m almost positive that I gave myself alcohol poisoning on some level.  

So kids, what did we learn…Yes that’s right, stick to beer.  Beer never makes me sick like this, and I know that even at my new size, I can down a 18 pack and be a super trooper the next day. Smile

Tomorrow I will handle the task of cleaning up the trail of red vomit marks that go from my bed to the bathroom (you’re welcome for that).  I tried to hold it in my hand as best as I could.  It kind of looks like a murder scene since they are just small spatters…neato! 

Non-alcohol related:
Thank you *SO* much to everyone for all the wonderful comments on my last blog post about me reaching my goal weight.  You have no idea how amazing they made me feel and the gigantic smile they put on my face.  I’d be lying if I said that I don’t go and re-read them daily, hee hee.  You guys are the best!! XOXO

I reached my goal weight!!!!


Almost 2 years, and with LOTS of hard work and dedication I am proud to say that I have lost 92.6 lbs!!!!

I was and still am in shock. I was honestly certain that I wouldn’t lose the 1.6 lbs I needed to reach goal, let alone be down 2.2 lbs!!!!

As soon as I saw her write down a FIVE after the 1, I started sobbing (my goal weight is 160…I weighed in at 159.4 as you can tell by the picture so I don’t even know why I’m telling you this). I grabbed my face and squatted down in front of scale. I couldn’t believe it. I was really prepared to have to wait another couple of weeks to get to goal and drive myself and all of you insane.

I pretty much cried for a while. All while calling Frankie, my mom and letting my tweeps on Twitter know of the news. I cant describe the feeling.  My leader had me stand up infront of everyone and talk about the journey a little bit.  Seeing the tears in some of my fellow memebers eyes just touched me in so many ways. I’m at a loss for words about it all.

It all seems too surreal. I’m almost quiet. I feel like I have 10,000 emotions and I don’t know what to do with them all. I want to scream, smile, punch something, cry, scream again LOL. I go through waves of happiness, then waves of sadness.

It’s a lot to process mentally and I think that’s what I will be focusing on this weekend. Maybe unplug from the blog & Twitter for the most part and collect my thoughts. Get together a plan in my head about how I will tackle the 6 weeks of maintenance I now have to do to become a lifetime member. And really just reflect on this whole part of the journey. It’s just simply amazing and I can’t believe I did it. Well…to be completely honest...I can.

I have to thank every single one of you *so much* because without your support & love, this journey would have been so much harder. The advice and encouragement and inspiration that many of you give me just overwhelms me sometimes, but in a good way of course. I couldn’t have gotten here alone and I thank you guys so much for being with me.

The journey doesn’t end here…another journey has just started. Obviously I will keep on blogging about Weight Watchers because that will *always* be part of who I am. Thursday nights will always be my “Weight Watcher Night”. I have the journey of maintenance now to work on and I will need your guys amazing support more than ever!!



Because TJ asked for an updated progress pic...I took one.  Kind of silly in a way since I just did one and you cant really tell the difference between the last one and this one where I'm 3.2 lbs lighter.  I think I look skinner in the other one LMAO...but here you go....

Let it be


Dane Cook said it best on Twitter today:


I am driving myself INSANE this week people!  Ever since I realized last week that I am only 1.6 lbs away from hitting my goal weight at Weight Watchers, the thought that keeps creeping in my mind over and over and OVER again is…

“This could be the week I hit goal.”

Well sure, that is true on some level.  It’s also very dangerous on another.  1.6 lbs is a mighty chunk to lose in one week, especially at this point in the game.  Sure, I’ve had a couple of good loses but the reality is, we’re down to ounces a lot more lately people.  Asking for 1.6 at a single weigh-in after having a few good regular weeks is asking for a lot. 

I’ve been getting on the scale every morning and even sometimes at night.  It’s driving me fucking crazy!!  Every time I step on it’s either creeping up a couple of ounces or staying around the same.  I’ve been a pretty good girl this week.  I’ve tracked *everything* (again!…2 weeks in a row if we are counting here people) and I have gotten some really good runs in.  I’ve gone over my points most days but only by a couple and I still have activity points left…I’m not in the negative for the first time in a LONG time!!  I’m mentally expecting it to go down and the fact that I’m not seeing that is getting my spirits down…BUT IT SHOULDN’T!!  Last week though I consumed 90 points over my weekly allowance…that includes what activity I earned too…but I still managed to lose 1 lb.  Awesome right??  Hell yeah it is!!  So can you kind of imagine what I am expecting this week considering how good I’ve been?? 

But thinking of the past and comparing it to my future is only setting myself up for disappointment.  And honestly, I know better.  I know a lot better.

I need to practice what I preach.  I always tell my dear friend Emily that patience is one of the hardest parts of this journey.  She is awful with it just as I can be, and I often want to slap her to knock it off and wait for the greatness that she is working so hard for.  Well I think it’s time I slap the shit out of myself! (Emily is doing amazing by the way and is so close to hitting her 10%! I’m very proud of her!)

Hitting goal will happen when it will happen.  It might happen Thursday, it might happen next Thursday, or hell, some Thursday next month.  I can NOT control when it *does* happen.  All  I can do is keep making the smart, healthy choices that I know I need to and want to make.  All I can do is keep running and working on my fitness goals.  Because essentially I know that these are the things that will get me to reaching goal. 

I also preach a lot about how this journey is not number based.  About how we *CANNOT* focus on the number on the scale.  This road we are traveling is a life long trip, with some detours along the way, but it’s the way we feel during about 90% of our trip that counts.  I didn’t join Weight Watchers to become skinny, or lose 92 lbs in 2 months.  I joined Weight Watchers to become a healthier and better version of ME!  To finally BECOME the person I wanted to be.  It’s about more than just weight.  So much more.  It’s a journey to learn more about our deeper selves and I guess right now I’m on the chapter where I need to learn about persistence, patience and of course…letting it be.

So…I need to settle the fuck down and keep doing what I am doing and try to not let my mind drive me too much more loco.  It will happen when it happens, whatever Thursday that happens to be…we will just have to wait patiently and see.  

(am I rhyming wizard or what?!?!)



I just want to wish *everyone* running the 
2010 ING New York City Marathon the

*best* of luck!!



I know a few people who are running it, such as the ever so lovely and supportive Melanie (@Mpkann) and of course the killer fabulous Skinny Runner.  Also a woman named Claire who runs an amazing blog called Will Run For Beer will be running it too.  I’m not sure if she knows of my existence, but I’m pretty sure we were separated at birth. 

And well there are about 1000 other people I follow on Twitter who are running so this shout-out goes out to them all!!   

I am so proud of all of them and I cannot wait to hear all about their experiences.

Maybe it’s just because I’m from New York (the state, not the city) but running the New York City Marathon to me is way cooler than running the Boston Marathon.  Not to knock the Boston Marathon…just saying…I get way more excited for this race.  My local NBC station will be showing highlights from 2-4 PM tomorrow so I plan on being glued to the TV…even though honestly, watching people run is pretty damn boring LOL.  But I’ll try to watch the highlights.

BUT for those of us not fortunate enough to be running the NYC marathon, remember that tomorrow is World Run Day!!


So in the spirit of the race and of the day, get out there (or on there if you will be treadmilling it) and pound out a couple miles!!


Move your ass!


This past Thursday at my Weight Watcher meeting, I hit another milestone…most likely this will be last milestone before reaching goal and then lifetime.  I was down 1 lb which put me at a total of 90.4 lbs lost.  HOLY SHIT!  In my head I kept telling myself “omg Suzi, you’re only 1.6 lbs away from goal” but then something else kept screaming in the background…”YOU JUST LOST 90 LBS!!”  Yeah…pretty crazy shit right??

I have a feeling the next 1.6 lbs will be a bit tough…not only physically but mentally as well.  Of course, having this awful cold doesn’t help because my ability to get a good workout out in is kind of being poo-poo’d on.  Speaking of working out….

That was the topic at my Weight Watcher meeting this week.  It was all about metabolism and how to jump start it. 

So how do you jump start it you ask?? By working out baby! Feeling the burn! Working up a sweat! Making babies! Eh…the world is populated enough, so please practice that last one with some protection. But if you must….

Many of you have asked me how I started running.  I explained it all in this blog post here.  But in a nutshell…no I wasn’t a runner ever before in my life.  I hated even *trying* to run.  I started by adding a little bit of 30 second running intervals into my walking routine and then adding some more, and more and more and VOILA…before you knew it, I was running a full mile, then 3, then 5, then 10, then 13.1 Smile. <----what the crap is that smiley face?!?!  Do you guys see that??  New on Windows Live writer I guess??  That scared the shit out of me!!



You don’t need to be a “runner” to lose weight or to be considered active.  There are *SO* many ways to add activity into your everyday routine.  Here are some of my ideas that might help someone out:

  • Find something you love!  Do you love swimming??  Find a community pool or maybe join a gym with a pool.  Love dancing??  Try Zumba classes (OMG *so* much fun!) Looking for something more calming…try Yoga.  More of a gym nerd??  Get on the elliptical and work that fine ass you packin’!!  Note: You probably wont love this activity at first, but I truly believe that when you try it, something will click inside of you and you will just *know* that you want to do it again.  That’s how running happened for me…I wanted more and more 30 seconds of running.
  • Start small.  Don’t expect to go balls to the wall the first time you do something.  If you do zero activity now, maybe try adding in small things like parking a little bit further away from the store entrance.  Carrying in bags from the car to the house one bag at a time.  I know these are cliché ideas, but they really do make huge improvements over time and really give you the confidence boost to want to move more!  Set a realistic goal and work from there.  I’m notorious for doing too much too soon and this was difficult for me but really, by taking small steps I was able to move into running comfortably and injury free.
  • Grab a buddy!  If you’re afraid to go it alone, try dragging some poor smuchk with you.  And if it’s going to be a really crazy, intense workout…ask someone who you really don’t care for to go with you. Smile(aaaaahhhh! scary smiley is back!)
  • Make a list of the reasons why you want to make exercise a habit.  Is is really just to lose weight??  Most likely not.  Is it to get tone & fit?  Sure.  I bet its just to feel overall AWESOME though!  And take it to the next step…after you work out, write down how you feel.  Tired, sweaty, strong, fit, lean, happy, ready for a beer…
  • Find motivators…whether its songs and a spiffy little playlist on your music player, pictures cut out of a magazine, power words (examples….strong, lean, perseverance, don’t quit, strength), or maybe its even day dreaming.  I’m a rare gem I’m told because I actually enjoy treadmill runs.  I think the reason why I do is because I find I zone out easier while I’m on the dreadmill.  I day dream like a mother fucker!  I cant even tell you how many people I have killed, how many red bikini’s I’ve worn or how many marathons I have won while running a treadmill.  Oh and lets not forget the many hit albums I put out and sold-out concerts I performed.  Man, I lead a busy life.



It’s not as difficult as it seems.  When my old WW leader would talk about exercising I thought “what a hassle!”.  I never enjoyed exercising or even liked entertaining the thought of it.  And I still have many days where I dread it, but I also have even more days where I lust for it.  Not being able to run for a few days kills me, physically and mentally.  If you do something enough, it will become a habit.  Ask any crack-head.

What’s one thing you could do to move more? What’s something you want to try activity wise that you haven’t tried *yet*?

Ghoblins & Goo

I hope everyone had a very safe & Happy Halloween!!
My Halloween this year was pretty low-key….compared to the past couple of years. I decided not to throw a party this year & just keep it simple with Frankie & myself at home, watching movies.  As most of you know, Halloween is my favorite holiday and I usually go all balls out...but this year I kind of just wanted to keep it simple.  Of course, the inside of my house was still decorated to the extreme.  ;)

There are certain “rituals” I do each year that of course stayed in the plan…like ordering Chinese food for lunch & watching The Wizard of Oz or Snow White…Snow White won this year thanks to its release on Blu-Ray. :) I crack open a bottle of wine that used to be made and imported from Transylvania but the company got bought out so now it comes from California…it’s just not the same anymore. Anywho, once the sun sets I turn on the old classics which are by far my favorite…Dracula, Frankenstein…the oldies but goodies (that’s also what I say about Frankie, hee hee).

My eating and drinking…well they weren’t the best of course. Lots of cheese, booze, and Chinese food. And I had all intentions of being good yesterday but since I had the day off I found myself snacking on pretzels & queso dip halfway through the afternoon. :/ Oh well…it happens…today is a new day!

So while my Halloween evening was calm and peaceful, my morning started out a bit differently this year…

This year was the 18th annual Brueggers Bagels Halloween 5K at Beaver Lake. This is a trail run and it is a relatively flat course, minus a few hills. This is normally one of my favorite places to run for a nice, relaxing, easy run.

This race also marked my “anniversary race”. This very same race is the first race I ever ran in! Last year it was on October 25th though. It was definitely an experience I will never forget. I can remember what songs I listened, when I felt like dying, what it felt like to come out of the trails and see the finish line….ahhh memories.

Needless to say I was very excited about this race. I even bought my Halloween costume primarily to run in it that morning, but due to the weather I didn’t wear it. :(

I did wear it to work on Friday though...

So how was the race you ask?? Well…

It sucked! I hated every part of it. And here are the reasons why:
  • There were A LOT more people in the race this year compared to last year. In fact, there were 157 more people. Now picture 652 people trying to run a race on a trail that is about as wide as say an F150 Ford truck…yeah, NOT fun!
  • What the fuck is with all these kids!?!? I’m serious people…I almost ran over two 8 year olds. What happened to having to be at least 13 years old with parents consent to run in the race?? There is a kid’s fun run before the 5K…have your children run in that!! I mean I am happy to see kids being active, but seriously?? And these kids were dressed in jeans and boots and when you tried to go past them to get out of their way, well they just thought it was funny and would try to speed up to beat you. It was annoying and pain in the fucking ass.  
  • The weather was not pleasant. It had been raining all night and into the early morning and yes THAKFULLY it had stopped, but on trails like these…it was a little too late. Last year Beaver Lake was kind enough to try and clean up what leaves they could so we wouldn’t slip on them. Well they didn’t bother to do that at all this year. Not only did they not clear the trails but it looks like that morning they had driven on a few of them with an ATV because there were a bunch of tracks filled with mud and holes. Considering I just took a nasty fall a few weeks ago…I was nervous as hell about falling. I actually did slip a few times but I caught myself. And don’t even get me started about the boardwalk portion of the trails…you want to talk about slick?? I think I had 50 people I let pass me by because I was so scared of falling. Overall, just very shitty running terrain.
  • I wasn’t feeling it. I just couldn’t get into this race. I wanted to just have fun and a good time, since I knew I wouldn’t PR this one…even everyone in the crowd was saying how you don’t run this race for time, thank god because I ran a sad 32:42…that’s over 3 minutes slower than my last 5K and my pace was a whole minute slower. Yuck! But even without really worrying about my time, I just couldn’t get into the run. I wanted it to stop and be over with. I didn’t want to be there and I certainly did not want to be running. The air was so cold wet that my lungs were SCREAMING….along with my shoulders due to some gas pains in my stomach.

They can’t all be winners and they can’t always be “memorable” races. It’s kind of sad that I had to have a real crappy run (as far as I can remember, this is my first real shitty race so I guess I should count my blessings) on a run that was monumental to me…but now I guess it’s monumental for two reasons, LOL.  
I didnt even get my 3 free bagel coupon this year. I did get a nice long sleeve shirt though...in baby blue...way to go on the Halloween colors people.  :/ 

Oh, and thanks to the conditions I now have a cold and feel like shit…lovely.

How did you spend your Halloween?? Did you have more treats than tricks??


Progress Pic Time!

Hey everybody!!  I'm so sorry for the lack of posting this past week.  I've been trying to recover and focus on getting myself back on track.  I'm happy to say, that I feel like I've done that pretty well.  Tonight is my Weight Watcher meeting and I dont know what the scale will say, but I know that *I* can say that I feel pretty fucking awesome!!  I'm really hoping the scale will back me up this week.

I got to buy a size 10 work pants!! WHOO HOO!!  I'm officially in a size 8-10 range.  Thats unbelievable!!  I also worked out 5 days this week which feels amazing after not being able to run for that week and 1/2 or so after my fall.

I will have a post about my meeting as well as a little Halloween fun. I am *HUGE* Halloween freak for those of you who dont know already.  It has been my favorite holiday ever since I was a little girl. I also have an anniversary 5K race on that day which I will talk about too.

But in the meantime...let me share with you some progress pictures. Starting with April of 2008 which was about 5 months before I joined WW'ers and ending with today. Enjoy :)



I’ve been thinking about this for awhile now.  I think every runner has, no matter how many miles you log a week.  At first, I always said ‘NO WAY! That is NOT for me!’ and as my mileage increased, that didn't change.

Then I ran my 1/2 marathon.  Everyone afterwards asked me, “what's next?…when’s the marathon?” and I still said “No thanks!”. 

But somewhere in the mind of my mind, I questioned it over and over.  I kept asking myself…Do I really want to run a marathon??  And the answer apparently is…Yes!

So, on October 2nd, 2011 I will run my very first full marathon…I will run the Wineglass Marathon in Corning, NY.


Now, there a few things I want to point out as to why I picked this race and instead of putting them into long, drawn out paragraphs I will list them into question and answer form instead.  These are the common questions I asked myself over and over…

Why wait till October of 2011 Suzi??  That's like a year away!!

  • It is far away.  By the time October of next year hits, mostly everyone I know will probably have ran a marathon BUT…I’m not choosing to run a marathon just to call my a “marathoner”.  I give a shit about that, or about becoming part of the “elite” group of people.  Seriously.  Who gives a fuck?!  Saying that “I'm a marathoner” doesn't get my anything special.  My troubles and worries don't melt away and I don't win a million dollars.  If I am going to run a marathon I want to be prepared and ready.  I don't want to just run a marathon to say I ran a marathon.  Just as with the half…I want to run it to prove *I CAN* run it!  I can say I am going to do something, set a goal, make that goal public and ACHIEVE my goal.  I have a few other goals first I want to accomplish…hitting my goal weight with Weight Watchers and becoming lifetime.  Getting my pace down around the 9:00 minute mark.  And I want to run AT LEAST one more 1/2 marathon by summer!  I have a year people.  A year to become the best I can be, because becoming great does not just happen overnight.

Why did you pick some unknown marathon in the middle of nowhere??  Why not run the Chicago or another Rock N Roll marathon??

  • Honestly…I picked this one because its close and I don't have to travel 5-8 fucking hours to get to it.  You all know I am poor and travelling is not something that easily fits into my budget.  Corning NY is less than 2 hours away from me and less an hour away from my family who live nearby.  It is a beautiful small town and I enjoy that its not in a huge crazy city with cars and lights and sounds all over the place.  AND if you think this isn't a “real” marathon…Well Runner World has some words for you…the Wineglass Marathon has been named one of the ‘Speediest Marathons’ in 2010 and also 4 years + prior.  This is a BQ (that means Boston Qualifier for you non-running nerds and most people like me who do not care :) course.  This is a beautiful, fast course in a location that is very serene and close to what I know.  What more could I ask for??

Why run a marathon??

  • I already said it…to prove that I can!! This is for me and no one else.  I mean this in *no* offence what so ever, but I don't give a shit about letting any of you down if I don't do it (ok, that's lie but it sounds good right??) and I don't care about letting Frankie down (that's a lie too) or my family (eh?).  I need to do this and I am *ONLY* doing this for ME (that is NOT a lie!).  No one here is going to give me anything that will change my life if I run a marathon.  Frankie will not whisk me away to some magical land and we will live like Snow White afterwards.  I need to do this because for some reason, I wont feel complete in my achievements until I actually do it!

So does this mean we get to see all your blogs and tweets on training!?!?

  • Ummmm…NO!  Don't you guys remember when I ran the 1/2 marathon?? LOL.  I don't do that shit.  Yeah sure, I might start some hokey pokey marathon training program on my Nike + and dump it within 2 weeks.  Or look up a training plan on Runner World only to print it out then put it in a respectable recycling bin. I run when I want to run.  I run for as many miles as I want to.  If you tell me I “have to run X amount of miles today to train!” I will say to you “are you paying me to run X amount of miles today?? No??  Fuck off then!”.  This doesn't mean my running will be as light as it was the few months leading into the 1/2 obviously, since I have other goals I want to achieve before running the full marathon.  But I have no interest in geeking out and speaking in “runners lingo” that no one wants to understand but some pretend to.  I’m math retarded by the way…a split to me is what people with no penis’s do…or it has a banana and ice cream involved.

Wow, how coincidental…It’s alcohol related!!

  • Yeah, this is funny.  I didn't pick it because it was alcohol related.  I mean yes, it helps, but honestly that's not why.  I do love wine but hello people…we all know I’m a beer gal and I’m sure I could have found something beer related if I really wanted to. Just an awesome coincidence and sign if you ask me ;)

So there you have it folks…I’m going to run a marathon.  26.2 miles I will run!!

Don't worry…you wont see every blog from here on out be all about marathons. Like I said…I have A LOT of other goals to work on

Tomorrow is my Weight Watcher meeting and I'm getting on that scale, no matter how awful it is going to be.  I cant wait to get myself back on program and feeling great! I cant wait to start making the choices I really want to make.  And of course…I cant wait to meet goal!!

My anniversary race is coming up too and I am *SO* excited for that!!  There will be a whole blog post about that coming up!!

Here’s to goals my friends…goals that you can make happen tomorrow, next week, next month and next year. 


*I just want to take a quick second, and actually there will be a whole blog post dedicated to this great product once I’ve thoroughly tested it but, I will be running and training for ALL my goals with the support of Generation UCAN.  You can also find them on twitter @GenUCAN  This stuff isn’t your little brother or sisters energy supplement.  This is SUPERSTARTCH baby and its the real thing!  As athletes, of any kind on the scale, we are not working out to just waste the muscle we are building or add on to the fat we have. We want the muscle we have built to stay and work with us and Generation UCAN can help to that….along with many other wonderful things.  You’ll see along my journey…you’ll see!!

When I was 26...

Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me, HAAAAAAAPY BIIIIIIIITHDAAAAAAAY Suzi (the girl who kicks so much fucking aaaaaassssssssss), Happy Birthday to ME!
When I was 26…
  • I lost 44.8 lbs! (So far 88.4 total)
  • I ran my very first race ever! (A 5K in October 2009)
  • I ran my very first 1/2 marathon! (In September 2010)
  • I created a 5K PR, only to smash it and create a new one almost 12 months later! The difference was 13:07 minutes!
  • I started a blog! (This one duh.)
  • I met some amazing people via this blog and Twitter (@SuziStorm…I’m a private account but just request me & I’ll accept)! 
  • I’ve shaved around 4.14 minutes off my pace! I went from a 13:38 pace (from my very first 5K on 10/25/09) to 9.24 (my last 5K on 10/9/10)! 
  • I went to my doctors and got a full physical!
  • I started taking my vitamins like a big girl! Me so grown up!
  • I gave up beer……LMAO! Just kidding. Just wanted to make sure you were still paying attention.
  • I switched to Bud 55…a LIGHTER beer! :) (which by the way, I have named myself the unofficial spokesperson for Bud Select 55…if you guys had any idea how many of them I drink on a weekly basis, you would agree completely)
  • I went to the dentist for a cleaning! This also makes me a big girl…dentist and devil don't both start with D for nothing you know!
  • I bought my very first ever Victoria Secrets bra! I still got big boobies but they are big boobies that fit into a Victoria Secrets bra now :D 
  • I went from a size 16 dress to a size 8! 
  • I took my first spill out on the road while I was running! Ouch! 
  • I got a cute new cruiser bike & I started riding again!  
  • I tried new vegetables like brussel sprouts, spaghetti squash, jicama (or is that a fruit? :/) and I loved them all!
  • I had awesome blonde highlights in my hair! I’ve since gone back to all black but it was fun to experiment a little during the summer.
  • I managed to buy clothes in bright colors like blue, yellow, and PINK!
I’m sure I did many other amazing things, but those are what stick out in my mind.

Honestly, birthdays have never been a huge thing to me. Age is really nothing but a number. I don't even hang out with most people my age. Hell, my boyfriend is 40 LOL. But it’s nice to reflect on this past year and look at all that I have accomplished and all the great changes I have made for myself.

For those of you who don't know, I have a phobia with the #7, or any number with 7 in it. A lot of very bad things have happened to me, all on days with a 7. When I turned 17 I was terrified that that would be the year I died. Obviously, I did not…..wait….nope, pulse is still beating.

I’m a little freaked out about going through #27 but when I look at all the things I’ve accomplished, I get to focus on making year #27 even MORE great!! What's in store?? Who knows….meeting goal weight and lifetime at Weight Watchers….running a marathon….breaking my 1/2 marathon PR….becoming a billionaire….winning an oscar…..winning a free medium fry at McDonalds…..WHO KNOWS!!

Only time will tell, but here is to another year!!

Now go drink a beer for me…….


Some weeks you got it, some weeks you dont...

(This is an extremely long blog post, and has no fun entertaining pictures, but I just had to get it out there...my apologies in advance.  Think of it as sleeping material ;)

I’ve mentioned it a few times on here, and if you follow me on Twitter you have heard me mention it about a few thousand times on there, but the past 3 weeks haven’t been that stellar for me. I would go as far as to say that the past MONTH hasn’t been that spectacular for me.

Exactly a month ago today I ran my very first ½ marathon. It was one of the best and most fulfilling moments in my life. Not only did I set out and accomplish a goal I set for myself but I also walked away from it with a form of “runners high” that I had never experienced before. I was running *more* than I was running during my training. I was running 4-5 times during the week and in all kinds of elements…hot, cold, dry, wet, and windy. Nothing seemed to stop me from heading out that door and going for a run. Hell, I even hit a new PR at my last 5K!!

My first week back from the ½ marathon I used my no-weigh in pass at my Weight Watchers meeting for the very first time because I knew that my eating wasn’t good while I was in Philly and I was in such a good mood that I didn’t want to face it the number and have it bring me down. I was still adjusting to getting back “on the program” mindset. I was focusing on getting my eating under control and back to making healthy choices, and running, running, running.

During those two weeks of running my ass off however, the scale wasn’t as nice to me as I had expected. I was up .4 ounces for two weeks in a row. I know that those gains were not much and had no real merit considering how much success I was having *OFF* the scale. And in this journey, isn’t it the NSV’s (non scale victories) that matter the most. I don’t think most people who are doing this are aiming to be “skinny”; we are aiming to be HEALTHY!

I talked myself into thinking that those gains were most likely gains in muscle, which I still believe to be true because my eating was pretty spot on and my activity was through the roof!

Then there was last week and the accident I took out on the road that really brought me down. You don’t realize that you have just taken not only a physically beating, but a mental one as well. That spill killed my runners high and I fear that I don’t know when I’ll get it back.

Now you would think that not being able to run would make me work harder at watching what I eat right?? One would think that this would be the prime time for those new muscles I’ve pumped up to do some work and burn off some fat while I rest and recover right??

But NO….instead, lets use this as an excuse to throw myself a pity party and eat whatever I want, whenever I want. Let’s bring things like M&M’s, bricks of cheese, chips and dips into the house. Let’s use the birthday as an excuse to go buck wild and just eat whatever the fuck I want for a whole week. How does that sound??

I was so ashamed this week of how I had eaten that I didn’t even go to my meeting. I knew that week that it was better that I didn’t and I still agree with that, but I do not agree with my behavior.

You know how people talk about “hitting the wall” in terms of running….you are running along all fine and dandy and then BOOM!!!! You almost physically cannot run anymore. The fact is, this “wall” is more mental than it is actually physical. You cannot mentally get over the wall to continue running. All you can think about is stopping, quitting, not moving another inch forward.

I’ve hit the Weight-Watchers wall. No, I don’t want to quit, stop, or give up but I feel like I can’t move forward. I was *SO* close to goal. I was less than 2 lbs away from getting my 90 lbs lost star and less than 4 lbs away from hitting goal weight. All of that would have been before my 27th birthday (which again…is tomorrow people. Still have plenty of time to send me presents :D )

But simply put…I fucked around. I made the choices. No one forced me to eat the things I chose to put into my mouth. No one held a gun to my head and said “eat this cheese or die!”….however, maybe I could get Frankie to act this one out so I feel less guilty. :/ What?? Not a good idea??

The wonder Melanie (@Mpkann on twitter) reminded me that the food does not control me. I control the food! And I feel as if I have lost control and that is one of the worst feelings in the world.

So what do I do to take back control??

Well, I start by stop making excuses!! I own up to the fact that I am just using these moments in life to eat whatever I want and have a “reason” for it. The only “reason” there is to eat is to LIVE…you know, not physically die. Sure, we can treat ourselves now and then, but when you are treating yourself 4 or 5 days out of the week, those are no longer treats…they have become habits again.

Second thing I do is get to my Weight Watcher meeting Thursday and step on that scale!! Don’t get upset about what ever the number is. Just glance at it and move the fuck forward!!

Does it make any sense to eat WORSE when you see the number on the scale go up?? Um….NO!! How in the hell is shoveling more garbage into my body going to make me feel better about the garbage I shoved into it previously. Yet we tend to do that anyways.

I know that the only way I will feel better is by making smart, healthy choices at least 95% of the time (because lets face it….no one is perfect), working out a few times a week and feeling good in my clothes.

I *know* what it takes to make me happy. I *know* what it takes to make that number on the scale go down. I *know* what it takes to lead a healthy lifestyle.

So you know what I have to say to myself…."Suzi, cut the bullshit and be the rock star that you truly are!"  I need to get back to dominating the scale and TAKING BACK CONTROL!!

Goal….watch out, because I’m coming for you……

Safety First!

If there is one thing that I learned from last weeks spill out on the road while I was running, it was that accidents to can happen to anyone, ANYWHERE!

You know how you always hear stories about people coming across certain unfortunate events and you think to yourself “man, I’m glad that wasn't me.”  Well…that *could* be *YOU*!

This isn't some stupid infomercial and I assure you that I am not getting paid to talk about how wonderful the following product is.  Nor am I getting anything special, other than this fabulous offer to give to all of you…
Yesterday, thanks to an early birthday present from Mother (it’s the 19th remember…you guys still have a few days to get your presents out to me :) I was able to order a RoadID bracelet finally!! 
roadid(please note: I do not know who Jamie A. Johnson is of those people on his wrist ID watch.  This is a photo from the RoadID website.  However, I give the man some credit for ordering a pink watch and for never wanting to give up. ;)

This bracelet is personally engraved for me.  It will state my full name, birth year, 2 emergency contact names & #’s, my allergies, and the last line you can personalize to have a motivating saying or really, what ever the hell you would like.  I chose: Perseverance!  It’s like a power word for me.  It reminds me to never give up.

Honestly though…I really wanted it to say ‘I love Beer!’ but I didn't do it…on this one ;)
I have been wanting one for months but never got around to ordering one, but after my fall I realized just how important it can be.

What if I had fallen on my head and cracked it open and was lying there bleeding to death in the street…no one would know who I was.  What if when I flew I flew into the road and got ran over by a car and rushed to the hospital…no one would know who I was and no one would I know that I am deathly allergic to penicillin…the antibiotic they would most likely give me first.

My point is, you never know what can happen or where it can happen.  I’m not trying to scare anyone obviously, but it’s important that everyone is safe and takes the measures to ensure that if god-forbid something does happen, there are things that can help to save you.

As a thank you for my recent order, RoadID would like me to share the love by offering everyone a $1 off coupon for any RoadID product (they do more than bracelets people!  Go check out their site NOW!) And the other amazing thing is that a wrist ID is only $19.99!!  And standard shipping in the US is only $1.49!!  Seriously people…for less than $22 you could wear the one thing that could save your life if you should ever have an accident.

I’m crazy poor, but I know the $22 was well spent.  And well…if you are poor too and if my ass-kissing to RoadID hasn't convinced you enough, maybe this $1 off coupon will…

Coupon Number: ThanksSusan850389

This coupon is good for $1 off any Road ID order. It can be used up to 20 times in the next 30 days.

Normally I would get the basic black or red, but I went crazy and got the PINK! I’m so excited to get mine.  It should be arriving next week!!  I plan on ordering a back up one soon as well!!

I hope everybody enjoys the coupon and seriously thinks about ordering a RoadID.

Today we are going out to my favorite bar to eat some delicious (aka not healthy for me at all) and drink some kool-aid beer and watch the Yankees!!  We are going to celebrate my birthday a little early…cause who wants to get crunk on a Tuesday???? 

I hope everyone has a safe and fabulous weekend!! XOXO

Thank you’s that are well overdue


First of all let me start by saying *THANK YOU* to everyone wishing me well after my fall on Sunday and sharing their own experiences with me.  It’s comforting to know you’re not alone out here in this world of running mishaps.  I mean…everyone falls down, but sometimes you feel like maybe you’re over thinking the injury…it’s nice to know people had my back and helped to steer me in the path of getting healthy again.

I’m glad to say that I am starting to feel better.  The swelling in my knee has gone down a lot and I have a lot more movement.  I think I might be able to start stretching tomorrow!!  Not to be too gross, but the gashes are crusting up just nicely :) and my while my elbow is still sore as fuck, it’s getting there.  I try to ice is with my beer can as much as possible.

Maybe…just maybe…I will be able to run Sunday or Monday. I’m really hoping.

Mentally…I’m getting into a much better place.  I skipped my Weight Watcher meeting tonight, which I normally wouldn't do, but I felt it was something I had to do this week.  Last night I worked on getting myself mentally “in the game” again and I was feeling pretty good.  I know I’m up…about 2.4 lbs on my home scale give or take due to last night meal courtesy of Ruby Tuesdays ;) …and I didn't need to go there and deal with that.  I didn't even want to deal with the meeting and seeing my fellow members this week.  Everyone has one of these weeks now and then.  I know that when I return next week, I *will* be ready!!

On e-tools it says the weekly topic was getting back on track…a “fresh start”…so maybe I should have gone LOL.  Eh, I’m getting there…one day at a time.  Sometimes you just need to work through your funk by yo-self!

Anyways, I received two wonderful blog awards from two wonderful people and because I A.) never could seem to find the time B.) life throwing shit my way and C.) pure laziness…I never got around to thanking them for these great honors. 

The awards I received are…

the-versatile-bloggerI received this from my dear friend Bethany on her blog lifes little epiphanies…

Bethany is an amazing person who is seriously one of the strongest people I know.  She’s had to undergo some strenuous hip surgery and still is sadly having problems.  But the woman doesn't give up.  She still gets her ass on that treadmill and walks and runs when she can.  She doesn't come close to realizing how amazing she is and how determined and strong of a woman she is and will continue to be.  I just love her! 

Thank you Bethany for this awesome award!! XOXO

My next award was…

OneLovelyBlog5B15D This came from the amazing nikeathena over at her awesome blog Small Town Girl

Thanks to Skinny Runner we came across each other and I am so happy that we did!!  She is an awesome gal who is running her way through life and trying to stay true to who she is.  Just in a the past 2 weeks she has given such inspiration and encouragement through her comments and her blog! 

Plus, we both share a wicked love with running gadget and gear ;)  I really look forward to getting to learn more and more about her.

OK, so…both awards require that I list like 8 million blogs I want to give these awards to…Seriously, I’d have to name like 30 and I just don’t have the time for that garbage tonight. So please accept my kindest apologizes.  Some time soon I want to do a little blog-love shout out to a particular group so I think I will save it for that moment.

Bethany’s award required that I list 7 things people don't know about me, so I will give that a shot:

  1. I once bought a tank top that read “Mrs.. Timberlake”  If I still had it, I would rock that shit today.  And yes, I was in my early 20’s when I bought it.
  2. I got my first tattoo at the age of 15.  It’s the symbol for “passion” on my forearm.  I believe that if you don't live your life with passion…what's the point?
  3. I had an unhealthy obsession with the Karate Kid when I was younger.  I’m serious.  I even dressed up as the Karate Kid.  Every photo of me from the age of 7-9 is me rocking the crane pose.  I can wax on wax off like no other!
  4. When I make cd’s for people, I always throw one random rap song in there somewhere.  And it’s usually a pretty hardcore dirty one.
  5. I’m a HUGE Dave Matthews Band fan…some people are surprised by this I guess??
  6. I love reading magazines.  I buy at least one or two a week.  Mostly fitness/health reads.
  7. I don't really like beer…..HAHAHAHAHA…that not true. At all. Seriously.  That kind of hurt to even type.  I need a beer now…
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