Crushing on...

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It's been a little bit since I've posted here. That's not to say that I haven't written anything because I have. I probably have about 8 or so drafts floating between my phone and iPad. But I haven't been able to finish any piece and nothing felt "right"...and then I realized that it's because I felt like I had this need to make every post "abundantly inspiring"...I mean I can only come out as an alcoholic who has regained weight so many times...or I hope so at least. Needless to say, things have felt heavy here on the blog. I'm still active daily on all my other social media sites, but I kinda put the core of my "social" existence to the back burner..

So I'm going to make this a light post...hate it, love it or like it....it is what it is. I'm never going to be that blogger that posts every day. That's just not me. And while I want to publish stuff that hopefully has an impact in some way or another, sometimes you just have to have fun and that's what I'm doing here.

This is just some random stuff I am loving on these days. 
None of these things were given to me by the companies. None of this is sponsored or anything. 

These are some products that I am really digging with the warmer weather *finally* here.



                                          
Maybelline Baby Lips Tint....this stuff is GREAT!! Especially in the summer when you don't want to deal with a full on lipstick or heavy gloss. Plus it makes your lips super smooth. 


This Rimmel Matte CC Cream. I don't usually wear a lot of face makeup and in the summertime the last thing I want is a thick, cakey complexion. But some days I need to even my skin out a little, or if I'm going out or something I like a little bit of coverage. Well this stuff is great! Not only is the coverage amazing for a BB cream but it doesn't streak or anything when I sweat. And bonus feature: it has a broad spectrum SPF 15 in it too!! 

I don't wash my hair everyday. In fact I really only wash it when I run, so that would be about 3 days a week. And after a run and a shower the last thing I want to do is stick a blow dryer at my head for 20 minutes (I have pretty thick hair). Very few volumizing products work well enough where I can eliminate a blower dryer, but if I don't get something at my roots my hair hangs in an awful way and I can't stand it. But this stuff....this Garner Fructis Full & Plush Root Amp spray mousse is awesome!! I haven't even blow dried with it yet and I am already hooked!! I just put it into my hair when it's damp, comb it through and leave it be. It gets a little crunchy but once my hair is completely dry I brush it out and voila....instant volume that has literally been lasting for a couple days. 

Here I am at work this week actually wearing all 3 of the products above:

                                                      


Things I'm doing....

                                           
Packing...it's the hubby's & I's 2nd wedding anniversary this Monday and we are going camping for a few days. While the weather is calling for rain, and the area we are camping in has been having some serious flooding, I am trying to stay positive and I am *really* looking forward to this trip!!


Running...I ran the Paiges Butterfly 5K 2 weekends ago and I was so happy to be back at that race. I finished in 33:31 which meant I beat a time I was trying to go for. It was my first race back since my stress fracture back in March. Thanks to my awesome friend, Ellen Brunet, for taking this great action shot of me! 


Things I'm eating...
                                         
OK, so this one is what I plan to eat but whatever...Have you seen this?! I just recently heard of Halo Top. There are only 2 flavors in our area but I am excited to try this. The ENTIRE PINT is only 10P+!!!!!!! 


I am OBSESSED with this new restaurant by me called CORE. Everything is made from scratch. It's healthy, delicious and so satisfying. I have yet to try something and not like it. I would eat there every.single.day if I could afford it. 


So that's it...random crap that I am crushing on lately. 
Anything you're in love with lately that we should know about?

The Art of (re)losing...

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There are some things that are hard to put into words. I don’t know how many times I’ve tried to type this post. I’ve thought about doing it in a video post but then it would just be me asking you to watch me babble on and on. Or what would probably happen is that I would have total mental time out and just stare weirdly into my iPad camera for like 5 minutes. That would be cool, no?

I do not say I am losing weight…I say (re)losing. Now some have deciphered this into me thinking it’s not as important or significant as the first (well technically 2nd) time around. However that could not be farther from the truth.

If anything, it is MORE significant to me. That’s why I've given it its own term…(re)losing.

See, it’s not like I lost 101 lbs 10 years ago. I didn’t give up Weight Watchers and decide to come back. I never left!! I have been an active member the entire time…yes, even as I was gaining 130 lbs back. Sure, I wasn’t doing shit with the plan, but I was in and out of meetings and I was randomly tracking. Trying…half assed, but trying to get back on program and get my shit together.

My big 101 lbs and then 130 lb gain all happened very quickly. The loss/gain/loss has all been within these past 5 years. I cannot forget about those 101 lbs I lost. I couldn’t “start new”…you cannot lose and regain that amount of weight in such a short period of time and expect to wipe the slate clean. Especially when I had so much happen to me and my story of losing the weight. It was only 4 years ago that I was shooting the commercial’s and campaign for Weight Watchers.

I can’t erase or forget those 101 lbs. They matter. They are part of me because they helped to shape me into who I am today…into what I do with this blog and what I’ve done with sharing my story and what I continue to put out there to hopefully inspire others.
Taken exactly 1 year apart...April 2014 & April 2015

These pounds lost now are smarter…they are wiser…they are not naïve…they are not there purely for vanity…they are not there for acceptance.  They have given me knowledge that I thought I knew before and have taught me things I didn’t even think I had to know.

(Re)losing is kind of a contradiction at the same time though. The biggest part of (re)losing is letting go of the past. Letting go of where you were and accepting where you are right now. It’s not focusing so much on where you want to be (which ideally is right back where you were) but where you are at that moment and how to make the next moment better.

Letting go and forgetting are two different things though. I can let go of those 101 lbs but I can never forget them. I never not have them be part of my story. Jesus Christ my story in a New York Time’s Bestselling book. I hit my goal…I am a Weight Watchers Lifetime member. That will never change.

Now if I had done all of this 10-15 years ago, maybe I would have a different approach. But this is how I have learned to forgive myself and move on to (re)losing. Forgiveness is one of the biggest parts in the art of (re)losing. Forgiving myself for all abuse I put myself through, both mentally and physically. I did what I did. It happens. It happened! I can’t change it. I can’t undo it. All I can do is say “well, that fucking sucks but it’s time to move on now.” And that’s what I did.

That’s what I continue to do every day. It’s a fight. It’s not easy. I’m in this for the long haul. I will never say that I will “never be that girl again” or “never regain the weight”…but every day I will continue to fight for this body that I have worked hard for. Every day I will continue to make choices that I feel are the best for me at that time. This is not a diet. The choices I am making today have to be no different than the choices I will make a month or a year from now. Why get so angry over “accidentally” eating a pint of ice cream that you sabotage yourself for the rest of the week?! It’s not worth it. It’s going to happen. 

These are not mistakes…they are not cheat days or cheat meal…they are choices. Good choices, alright choices and bad choices.  Not every day is going to be filled with 100% good choices and if it did, well life would suck big time. The scale is always going to go up and down and up and down. It doesn’t matter if you are at goal weight or if you are just beginning your own weight loss journey…we are all a solider in the war against unwanted pounds. You don’t hit a # on the scale or get your WW Lifetime card and POOF…you can go back to eating like you did before. If you can’t live with the food choices you are making today, then you will never be able to live with them a year from now. 


And while I will never say that I am “glad” that I regained all of the weight, I am thankful for what regaining the weight has taught me. Things this time around have been different. I care less about #’s and more about how I feel and how I like what I see in the mirror. It’s ok to be a little vain sometimes…it’s healthy and I think that keeps me more on track than anything else really. I don’t obsess about going over my daily or weekly points. I’m not going crazy to make sure I get all my exercise in. It is what it is. As long as I am trying each day to make the best, healthy choices that I can then I think I am doing all right. And 90 lbs (re)lost later…I think I can comfortably say that for right now I am in control and I don't feel like I am going to lose that anytime soon. 

Meal preppin'

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This weekend I did something that I have never really done before.
I meal prepped.
That’s right…I’ve managed to lose 100 lbs almost twice now, yet I have never really done a meal prep. Now that doesn’t mean that I don’t plan ahead and just eat whatever on a whim, but I’ve never really made, portioned out and put together meals in advance.

At work recently there were some changes and my lunch time is cut down a bit since my husband (we work together) needs to get back sooner than I do. We live right around the corner from work so we go home at lunch but when you factor in the travel time there’s really only about 20 minutes to sit down and eat lunch. In our obscenely small kitchen it is impossible for both of us to be in there making lunch at the same time, so I have found my lunches to be bland, boring and not really satisfying. It’s been a lot of ham or peanut butter sandwiches. What’s next…cold square shaped pizza and chocolate milk in a pouch?!

I decided that I wanted to try and meal prep some lunches and snacks. This way I know I have something that is satisfying and Points+ friendly for my lunches. And having them all prepared and ready to heat up if necessary solves my time crunch issue.

I didn’t do anything for dinners. See, I really love cooking and so does The Frank. I don’t mind eating leftovers or reheating things for lunch but for dinner I like to prepare it fresh. And a lot of the time we are deciding what to eat that very day. By doing that it helps the meal to feel more satisfying because I don’t know about you but sometimes there is no worse feeling than having to eat something you don’t really want to eat, LOL.

But for my lunches? This is can prep up and look forward to. So I did just that!! And to break out of the sandwich rut I broke out the crock pot. I made 2 different meals from the SkinnyTaste site: Balsamic Pork and Santa Fe Chicken. Not only do I have these for lunches but we also had them for dinner the night they were made. This saved $$ on extra groceries. Score!! After we ate them for dinner I would let them cool a bit then I portioned out the serving size. 

First thing I did was get some containers. I wanted something that I could store everything into one…not 4 or 5 different containers. I found these at the dollar store and my mom found that red one at the Christmas Tree shops. Amazon also carries some that are a reasonable price. Not crazy about them being a circle as they take up more space in the fridge but for a buck you can’t go wrong. Plus it will just encourage me (hopefully) to clean out the fridge more.

I also got these little containers (also at the $1 store) to hold dressings & dips. They fit into the large tray perfectly too.

I said OK, I got my protein…how can I add some flare to it? SO I put some fat free re-fried beans with the chicken and some quinoa with the pork. Now I need some sides, because I’m all about QUANTITY…I roasted some broccoli to go with the pork because it just sounded good and added a brie cheese snack to give me some extra protein because I am a total protein slut. With the chicken I decided to cool things down with some cucumbers and fat free black bean dip and/or yogurt ranch dressing.

The lunches feel kind of big but I think that’s because the circle container makes it feel like a giant dinner plate. The Weight Watchers Points+ Values are 10P+ for the Pork and 7P+ for the chicken.

For snacks I just did simple things, like portion out more ranch dressing and dip, cut green peppers & cucumbers and portion out edamame (which after MANY years of just thawing and eating it I learned it needs to be cooked…oops). Other good snacks to do are hard boil some eggs, string cheese which is a lot easier to grab if you break them apart from each other instead of having to rip one each time you want one, cut fruit and portioned out crackers & chips.


So some good tips to get started:
  • Buy something to store your food in that is easy and accessible to you. Don't over complicate things because you're likely to grab something else.
  • Keep it simple when you start...sliced up cucumbers and pre-portioned cheese. Things you can just throw in there. Just like when you start out on a the program (or any program really) too much too soon can feel suffocating. Keep it simple.
  • Make something that provides many servings. Both of these recipes made 8 servings a piece. This left me with a lot of leftovers. I don't want to eat the same thing everyday of course but with each of meals I can mix it up by adding a different side or adding it to something else.
  • Set aside some time. It doesn't take a TON of time but it's nice to block out an hour or so on the weekend and dedicate it to yourself and your wellness. Due to my extremely small kitchen it takes me a little longer to prep but it was fun and it was worth it. Plus I'm on my feet and moving around so it's something active as well.
  • The internet is your BFF when it comes to meal planning. There are SO many sites out there with meal prep ideas, especially for lunches. Pinterest is my BFF when it comes to this and with a lot of Weight Watcher friendly recipe sites a lot of the Points+ calculations are done for you!  

I really hope that this is something I continue to do each week. It’s nice knowing that I have a decent lunch waiting for me and that all I have to do is heat it up when I get home. Money was pretty tight this week (ok every week really) but these meals were extremely cheap to make and we got so many servings out of them that there are enough for Frankie to have as well if he wants or we could have them for dinner again…though if I’m eating them for lunch that probably won’t happen, but it’s an option! Hell, I could even just have the chicken or pork by itself for a snack if I wanted. Throw some of it in a piece of baby romaine lettuce and yum yum in my tum!!



Do you meal prep?? Any good tips or meal suggestions??
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