I tend to get lazy…a lot. Sure, I still run 3-4 times a week and I get up and go to work Monday through Friday, but I’ve still been pretty damn lazy over the last few months. Some days I am absolutely surprised that I even got out of bed.
I’ve been lazy with this blog. This is my first post in how many months?? It’s not that I don’t want to blog. I just don’t want to blog about stupid, meaningless BS so I’d rather just not post at all. I post when inspiration strikes I guess. So maybe my inspiration has been lazy and not me…see…totally not my fault. I mean I still post on FB (my personal) and Instagram a lot but even then I think I could do better and I mean to do better…but then I get lazy and eh.
I’ve been lazy with tracking. I went from tracking literally every.single.day for months to barely tracking one whole day. Now that doesn’t mean that I’m eating like absolute garbage but I think many people know the benefits from tracking and how it can help not only on the scale but also with the mental game that weight loss can bring. When you’ve been a Weight Watcher member for as long as I have tracking is so easy to do…yet I haven’t been doing it. I have even been too lazy to look up the Point+ Values for some of the food I have consumed. Lazy just all around when it comes to the points and tracking.
I’ve been lazy with exercise. I mean I’m still active. I’ve ran a few half marathons these past few months and this is the most consistent I think I have ever been with my running. Coming back from the stress fracture I got in March has been slow and trying on my patience at times but I am feeling great with my running and starting to see progress again. What I mean when I say I’ve been lazy with exercise is that I haven’t done anything to switch it up. I think I only rode my bike twice this year. My weekly Sunday yoga sessions have namaste’d the hell away from me. I got on the elliptical a couple times though. That counts for something, right??
I feel an overall laziness with people too. Does that make sense??
However my weight loss has been the absolute laziest of them all. I have been living in the same 10 lbs for months now. Up a little here, down a little there, down a lot, up a lot. Up, down, up down. Since June I have lost a total of 4.8 total. I would lose that in just one week then creep it back up for a couple weeks, then back down, then back up…so on and so on. I can’t seem to break out of these 10 lbs. I’ve been 2-3 lbs away from hitting my 100lbs lost mark for the past couple of months. It’s annoying…it’s irritating…and it’s downright stressful. Sure I still get very kind remarks about how great I look with the weight loss and maybe I am down more in inches (I didn’t keep track of my measurements which was something I regretted not doing the first time I lost 100 lbs so you would think I would’ve done it this time…again my laziness got the best of me) but here’s the thing…you know how people say the number on the scale doesn’t matter, well that’s kind of true and kind of a bunch of bullshit. If you weigh yourself once a week and are in the process of losing weight and trying to get back to your healthy range then the number on the scale absofuckinglutely does matter. It doesn’t matter the most…it’s doesn’t matter a lot…it doesn’t measure anything…but it matters a little. And that little bit can drive us insane.
So obviously my biggest lazy moment over these past few months is because of all the others. Tracking, exercise and being vocal about my ups and downs have always been the things that have made me succeed and continue to lose weight. I know that by getting back into my habits of tracking and such that things will start progressing again. It might not happen in a week or two weeks and I will still have ups and down on the scale, but at least on those hard weeks I can still have the comfort of knowing that I made the right decisions and did all that I could do that week. Some people find Autumn and Winter the hardest for weight loss but I’ve always been the opposite. I’ve always found summer to be difficult for me to stay on track and keep up my habits. This summer ice cream got the best of me. I mean 98% of the time it was always light ice cream but it was every single night…this week I have to focus on breaking that habit. But pumpkin ice cream is out on shelves now soooo…yeah….
I can sit here and beat myself up for months of forward progress being wasted, but that will accomplish nothing…so here’s to trying to not be so damn lazy anymore.