Just call me Suzi Snow Storm!

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Or Suzi Snowflake…or Insane Suzi…

I’m officially registered to run the Lake Effect Half Marathon on February 23rd 2014!!

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I signed up to run this race this past year, but like every race (minus the Color Me Rad run) that I signed up to run this year, I backed out. I only have one DNF in my entire race history (which was really when not only my running was falling apart, but *I* was falling apart)…but this year I sure did rack up a lot of DNS’s and those are the worst.

That will NOT be the case this time!

I have missed running, so much. I miss the *me* time it gave me. I miss the way it helped me relieve stress. I even miss the way it sometimes caused me stress. I miss the feeling of my feet pounding the pavement…now all I feel is my ass pounding the couch cushion. I miss the feeling of accomplishment after a run. I miss the aches and pains. I miss the feeling of getting ready for a race. I miss gathering with my fellow runners at the starting line. I miss crossing a starting line.

Living in Central New York…running in February….it’s pretty crazy. In fact, the first year this race was put on (this will be the 3rd year) there was a crazy snow storm. I remember waking up that morning, looking out the window and saying to myself “Man, I’m glad I didn’t sign up for that race!” HA! That could come back to bite me in the ass big time.

The weather won’t be the only challenge.

As many of you know, I haven’t ran in like, well, forever. There have been a few attempts but they didn’t work out so hot. I either start running like I haven’t gained back over 100 lbs or I act like I can still run 8:00 minute miles….yeah right!! But this past Saturday I went to the parkway and was just planning to go for a walk…but as I’ve mentioned in the past…I’m not a walker. It bores me. If I’m walking it better be to go get beer or shopping or something fun! So Saturday I threw in a few running moments. I had to catch myself a few times because I could feel body wanting to run like I used to…but that’s just not possible (unless I want to hurt myself or give myself a heart attack and I really don’t like either of those options).

But once I slowed down…once I let my legs lift just the right amount…I felt *it*. I felt that *click*. And it wasn’t just about running. It was getting easier when I would say to myself “OK, start running at this marker here and stop at that tree.” I think I ran a little more than I thought because my legs and core have been pretty sore (BOOM! Poetry, bitches!).

I might have actually ran more if I wasn’t pulling my pants up every two seconds…the pants that also have a whole in the backside. I really need to get a nice pair of running pants and a nice long sleeve shirt for cheap, like crazy cheap, like “BUT IT WAS .99 CENTS!” cheap. I also don’t want anything super tight that makes me look like a piece of sausage stuffed into its casing. I have my compression socks and that’s about all the compression I want and need right now.

Am I crazy for planning to run a half marathon in 3 months and 17 days (not that I’m counting or anything)?? Yeah, probably. Especially since I can’t even run a mile straight right now.

But I’ve done crazier stuff with races (hello, marathon. hello, boilermaker 2012).

I’m sure I won’t be running the entire race. And I certainly will not come close to any of my previous half marathon times. But I’m going to that starting line! For the next 3 months I am going to start training again. For the next 3 months I will find my motivation and desire to run. For the next 3 months I will find *myself* again and I will get back to taking care of *me*. For the next 3 months I will stop making excuses and hating myself…I will just suck it the fuck up and DO IT!!

I hope to blog a lot about my journey into this race. I’m not really a newbie, but not really a runner right now. I’ve kind of been calling it a “comeback”…but as my gal Cyndi wrote on my FB page “Don’t call it a comeback- I’ve been here for years”…well that is true. But the past year and a half I have been stuck…and I’m finally starting to feel myself becoming free of all that stickiness. I’m not just training again for another half marathon…I’m getting rid of the weight I added back onto my body…I’m tossing out the bad habits, the excessive habits and re-teaching myself to make the right choices. This is more than just a race for me…it’s a re-birth!

Here I go again…

14 comments:

  1. Re-birth! So glad you are signed up for that race! :) Claire in NJ

    (I'm a blog fan of Sheryl Bitchcakes, which is how I found you...I saw her in the corrals in NYC this past weekend and she put my pix in her miles 0-11 blog post. I am inspired by her and I am inspired by YOU.)

    GO SUZI GO

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  2. Absence making the heart grow fonder sure does apply to running! You'll start to feel all those familiar feelings of accomplishment again. Just make sure to leave the past in the past... And go!

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  3. So this is gonna be loooong comment, but this letter I'm about to post is something I read every time I get ready for ANY kind of race, get a little bit down, or pretty much any time I just need a kick in the ass. You will be awesome at this half marathon! You're not crazy for planning this at all. You're already aware of where (and what) you'll need to cut back on. You're gonna seriously rock this.

    The Courage to Start

    The most difficult part of the training program is getting to the starting line. You must confront so many obstacles. There are so many places for things to go wrong, so many times when you can give up and quit, that, if you are there when the gun goes off, you are already a different person than when you took your first training run.

    Right now, as you read this, millions of other people also want to walk or run a half-marathon or marathon. They dream about it at work, in the car, or while watching television. They know just how they want it to be. They think they know what the training will be like, what their bodies will look like, what the race will be like and how it will feel to stand at the starting line. They even believe that they know how it will feel to cross the finish line.

    But they’re just dreaming. They aren’t doing it. You are. On race morning, when you are out there standing at the starting line with your number on, surrounded by others just like you, you will know what they only imagine. You will feel it, see it, smell it, and experience it. Unlike those who only dream, you’ve earned the right to be part of the experience.

    By getting to the starting line, you’ve already placed yourself in the top echelon of athletes. You may not be in the top tier of that race, but as a long distance athlete, you are fitter, better trained, and more disciplined than 99 percent of the population that has ever lived. Remind yourself of that when you start to obsess about your pace or finish time.

    When you stand at the starting line, you join the club. When you stand at the startline, you earn your membership. Millions dream of being where you are. You are no longer a dreamer. You are a doer. . . . .

    If you’re standing at the starting line, you’ve not only accepted the challenge, but you’ve beaten back the demons. You’ve conquered your imagination and self-imposed limitations. You’ve gone farther, gotten stronger, and gotten tougher than you ever imagined.

    The miracle truly isn’t that you are going to finish, but that you had the courage to start – not just the courage to start the race, but the courage to start this odyssey of training and self-discovery. You’ve had the courage to find out whether you are who you think you are. And if you discovered some new strength, you learned to trust it.

    More important, if you discovered some new weakness, you understood that it was just a matter of time and training before that weakness was gone. The medal that you receive for finishing is symbolic of that courage and that willingness. It becomes a powerful icon in your life. Once they place that medal around your neck, no one can ever make you give it back.

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    1. Wow! That's really great. I might have to repost this on my blog post.

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  4. Yay! Glad to hear you will be running again. Try a Galloway training plan (run - walk - run) method. I still do this with ALL my runs! It's so much more enjoyable.

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  5. Congrats! I have also signed up for this race after crashing hard last year. Been getting back to it since July and making progress. So keep at it! My training plan for this race starts today. Heading out shortly to get moving. A FB group that might help keep you motivated is https://www.facebook.com/groups/50MilesNovember/ Hang tough and get running. You can do it.

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  6. Soooo excited for you!!! Eeeeek!! And love that you are getting back into the running bit. Me too... I went on sabbatical for awhile and just finished c25k and training/running a 4 mile trail race! Now I"m back in it!!! I've still not braved a 1/2...I want to, but too damn scared!!! I know you are going to ROCK this... Excited to follow your journey :)

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  7. So excited for you getting back to running!

    Like you, I've been craving getting back to the level or running I was at over a year ago. I've been doing a few fun 5ks, but I've actually registered for a half marathon next year...but I'm not telling anyone, so shhhh.

    I also ordered a GPS running watch today as extra incentive to get out there. Can't be wasting the money, you know?

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  8. So awesome! It's going to be great. I actually really love the cold races. My first half marathon was in February in Manitoba, Canada. Oh yes, It was cold and there was lots and lots of snow but definitely one of my favourites.

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  9. Love, love, love this post. I totally understand how you feel. Running keeps me sane. I need to run. I have to run. 2013 has been a year of running for me. You can so do this, girl. I can't wait to follow your journey to your half marathon. Proud of you!!!

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  10. You are AMAZING! And your determination will push you to your goal. Be proud!!

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  11. So glad you are getting unstuck! It is sometimes harder to re-motivate then start. You know you can do this!

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  12. Suzi, your post re doing a half in Feb just inspired me! I've gotten married, gained weight (hubby is a great cook and who doesn't want to just sit and cuddle) and feel blah. I've done halfs before and need to get back to it. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I'm not going for Feb but will go for a May half. And I will be training in the northern Canadian winter so this will be a challenge. What a great way it will be to move into spring! Thanks. Your emotional honesty is just inspiring.

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