Oh, 20!!

Age has always been nothing but a number to me. When I was 10 and younger I learned to grow up fast and pick my own self off the floor. When I was 12-13 years old my best friends were 16-17…this wasn’t a bad thing at all. They looked after me. They taught me how to live…without fucking up completely at life. I haven’t talked, seen or heard from any of them since I was younger but I sure do hope they are living a great life…one like they showed me I deserved.

I turn 30 tomorrow.

I never thought I would make it to 20….let a lone 30. To be honest….I thought I would have killed myself by now. Every year in my “teens” was a battle…even when they were good. I remember being 14 and talking to a friend and saying “I’ll be dead by the time I am 30, no doubt.”….I still got a few hours so I guess I better be careful huh?? LOL

But my 20’s….oh my 20’s….

Again…age is nothing but a number but I look at these past 10 years and they have been the most prominent of my life.

I loved. I loved so hard. I loved so hard that I had to let go of that love before it ruined us both because we both had to grow. We both had to learn…and it wasn’t a lesson we could learn together, unfortunately.

I went against myself, in more ways than one. I battled demons and some fights I did not win. I learned more about my weaknesses in my 20’s than in any other decade. I learned that weaknesses can turn into something beautiful. I felt a connection to another energy that I still hold dear…it was a lesson…that I needed to learn.

That lesson somehow, someway, let me become a wife..something I *NEVER* thought I would be & wasn’t sure  I wanted. I am the wife to a man who NEVER in a million years I thought I would go out on a date with…let alone spend the rest of my life with. But he is my everything. He has always been there…since I was 10 years old actually, lol…I just never knew he was “the one” until it was really my (our) time to know.

My 20’s were filled with success, a bit of “stardom” and a lot of ups and downs.

In my 20’s I (no particular order) :
  • Lost a love
  • Lost weight
  • Gained a deep friendship
  • Gained weight
  • Lost a deep friendship
  • Found L.O.V.E.
  • Started a blog
  • Lost A LOT of weight
  • Went to NY to do a WW success story
  • Went to Chicago to be on Oprah
  • Was featured in local newspapers and news channels
  • Weight Loss Story published in magazines, online, and in a book!
  • Was a face in the Weight Watchers Believe campaign
  • Had my own TV commercial
  • Set up #SyracuseStrong which was “just a run” to help show support to the victims of the Boston Marathon bombings…I invited 30 people….over 1000 showed up
  • My heart learned to grow a little bigger and a little stronger when my stepson came into my life
  • My mother went through massive brain surgery…the hardest thing I have had to watch and stay strong through to date (universe…that is NOT a challenge)
  • I GOT MARRIED!!!!!!!!
  • I found new friends…and I learned where some of my “friends” really stand (still learning this one)
  • I gained all my weight back
  • I ran my 1st 5K
  • I ran my 1st 10K
  • I ran my first (of many to come) 1/2 marathons
  • I was a Weight Watchers leader
  • I got high blood pressure
  • I joined a Fantasy Football League…seriously
I'm sure I am leaving things out...but see…I’m not scared about turning 30. Because 30 is just a number.

I am scared because my 20’s…even with all the ups and downs, the gains, the losses…my 20’s fucking ROCKED!!!!!!!

Will my 30’s compare?? What do I have to look forward to in my 30’s??

Did I reach my “peak”…is it just cruise control from here on…

I sure hope not.

Thank you for being with my during this time….here’s to the next chapter!!!! THIRTY BEERS FOR EVERYONE!!!!! XOXOXO


  1. This is a great post to look back and reflect upon. I'll admit when you first told me you were the face of WW, I was a little bit star struck when we met! You are truly an inspiration Suzie and I know you (out of anyone) have the motivation and drive to do what you want. The fact that you organized the Syracuse Strong run in Aoril is truly inspiring. I told everyone in Oswego that I knew the person that did that. I feel like I brag about you more then you do LOL.

  2. I hope you feel amazing! Life is full of ups and downs, we must persevere! Continue to be the amazing woman you are~

  3. You will love your thirties!! Each decade you are wiser than the one before and become a bit more comfortable with you! Happy, Happy Birthday and I'll be toasting you with an IPA from San Diego!! ;-)

  4. Coming from a woman who is (just slightly) older than 60, I am happy to say that there is no cruise control in life, at least not that I've seen so far. There is always something new to learn, friends to make, challenges to tackle, places to go, friends to love. Marriage can get even better than it is in the beginning. And yes, there is even more beer to drink, although I don't recommend consuming 30 beers even on your birthday. Best wishes to you!

  5. Happy Birthday my dear Suzi! Every year brings lessons to our wonderful life. Keep your head up and keep looking at the stars!

  6. I love how honestly you share you life. I think your 30s will be even better than your 20s. Have a very happy birthday!

  7. Happy Birthday Suzi!! Oh to be even 30 again.....I would do a lot different in life. Loved your 20 flash back. Now it's time to start a new list. The 40's will sneek up on you fast

  8. Happy birthday! Have a great one!

  9. Have a fabulous weekend! I'll have a toast to you tonight! Your thirties will be even more fabulous!


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