Monday, December 31, 2012

Ups and Downs

Oh 2012…you manic little thing you.

2012 was year of ups and downs for me.

The Weight Watchers campaign came out right on New Years last year and it was truly amazing to see. It was so great to share my story with everyone and to get so much amazing feedback from people. Knowing that I inspired just one person made it all that much more worthwhile.

I only ran one race in 2012. One. I deferred others that I could, or in some cases didn’t even bother showing up at all. I basically gave up on running. Unless you can count going from the couch to the fridge to get a beer running?? (and lets not even talk about how many beers I’ve been “running” to again)

I gained all my weight back (plus an extra 5 lbs just for fun). Yup. It’s amazing how much time and effort it takes to get weight off but just how quickly and easily you can put it back on. Am I upset with myself? You bet. To be 100% honest with you all, over the past few months I’ve had moments where contemplating suicide over dealing with my weight gain has seemed like a better option. Shame, guilt, embarrassment…I’ve had it all.

But I didn’t just gain weight…I’ve gained great knowledge. I’ve learned a great deal about myself this year. What I truly want out of life. How I truly want to feel. How I truly want to live my life. When I was heavier before, I never really knew what it was like to be fit and healthy and happy with my body and mind. Now I do. And I want that back…BAD.

Weight Watchers has the tools for me to use, and now I have the knowledge that *I* needed. At my meeting last week I had them give me a new clean book. Started with a fresh new path! My comeback story will be far greater than any of my success stories have been.

Frankie and I got take a little time out for ourselves this year. We went and saw Dave Matthews a few times and Joe Bonamassa earlier this year. We went to a Yankee game and finally got to see the new stadium. We took a little long weekend vacation in an adorable little cabin in the Adirondacks.

And oh yeah…

We got engaged!!

That is by far the best thing to happen to me this year. And marrying this man in 2013 will definitely be the highlight of the year.

What’s in store for Suzi Storm in 2013….

Well I’m signed up for races. One’s that I plan to attend and actually participate in this time.

Getting back to my healthy weight and staying there (for more than just a little over a year this time!).

Did I mention that I’m getting married?? Winking smile

 

Before I sign off let me take a moment to thank all of you for sticking by my side all these years…especially this one. All of your love, support and encouragement has kept the fight within me alive. You are all my friends and we are all in this together. Happy New Year!! Here’s to 2013!! XO

2012….thanks for letting me see you through till the end, but it’s time for you to go….

17 comments:

  1. You will be awesome, no scratch that you are awesome but it will be bigger and better next year!! Have a great night!

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  3. Been there done that with gaining it all back. I backed out of 4 races I had signed up for in 2012 (and one tomorrow morning - but that was kind of dumb of me to sign up for - it's going to be 20 degrees and icey while last year it was 40 and dry)

    Here is a fabulous 2013 for you. Getting married is awesome. We are all here for you, through the good and the bad.

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  4. I don't always comment but I always follow your posts :) You are amazing! You are real and you always inspire me because I've been there (been at goal and gained all back) 2013 is going to be a fantastic year!!

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  5. I gotta a feeling that 2013 is going to be great!

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  6. Yay, Suzi's back!!! I'm within 10lb of my top weight and plan to deal with my sh*t this year too, so your story will be part of my pathway. Convoluted much?

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  7. Suzi,
    Happy New Year to you and a blessed 2013.... Congratulations on your Wedding and future New Life.
    Betty

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  8. Your year will be epic. Happy, wonderful, glorious, beautiful.... epic. Just like you.

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  9. I know exactly how you feel. Starting over is never easy but nothing in life worth having ever comes easily. Let's rock 2013!

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  10. This is gonna be your year, girl!

    BTW, be sure and let me know which cowboy songs you'd like me to yodel at the wedding.

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  11. I love your blog. Thanks so much for your honesty and for sharing your experiences. I totally look forward to reading about how you rock this year :)

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  12. Welcome back! Can't wait to read about your new journey, and what you will be writing in that new clean book!

    Congrats on getting engaged - from one engaged woman to another!

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  13. Wishing you so much peace and happiness in 2013. I'm thankful for your honesty through this whole thing. I think you are starting on such a positive note - you will be so awesome!

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  14. Thank you for being so brave. I've been on and off of the weight loss train and you do gain knowlege along this journey :) Congrats on your upcoming marriage!

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