My journey with Weight Watchers, myself, & that 30 pack of beer sitting in my fridge.
Just a #
6 to 20
It can happen in less than a year.
And it will tear you apart.
Because every day you remember where you were.
I know the feeling. -hugs-
But it's not the end. It can change again. xxxx
Hey Suzi - be proud that 6 has been one of your numbers. I've never got below a 14! Like Renee said...it can happen again, but make sure that you are kind to yourself now, and on the way to the number you want.
That happended to me this year. October 2011 I was size 6 by August 2012 I was size 18. I cry inside everyday because of my weakness and stupidity. I feel powerless to stop from moving on to size 20. I struggle just to tie my shoes when a year ago I was running a 5k everyday.
You did it once, you can do it again. Believe Suzi.
I feel your pain in this post. So sorry that you have to struggle like this. I have been down the road, where I felt so powerless and worthless to change my behavior. I became essentially a shut-in, not wanting to interact with people who saw me a few months previous at a much lower weight. The shame was unbearable.I told myself to believe that I deserve a better life than the one I was leading. I have periodically forgotten this, and packed the weight back on more times than I care to remember. You are not alone in this struggle! Believe girl. You are so much more than a number.
I too feel your pain as I am on a very similar path. In September of 2011 of reached my goal of losing 101 pounds and over the past year I've managed to regain a majority of it back (too afraid to get on the scale and see the actual number). I was rocking a size 6 and this morning squeezed myself into a size 16. Why do we do this to ourselves? We know how good we felt and yet somehow go way off track. Time for us both to get back on track. I have faith we can both find our way back to those size 6s. Rock on!
Suzi I applaud you for your bravery and your strength. I'm sure it's hard to put it all out there and I appreciate that you do. I'm sure the countless others that read your blog and follow you on Twitter and FB appreciate it as well.We all struggle. Nobody got to the point that they wanted to do something about their weight (either through WW, another plan, using social media as weight loss support, etc.), because they had their eating/food issues under control. We all start, and restart, plateau, fall down, stop taking care of ourselves, get back on track again. Life is a series of one step forward and two steps back. You remind me (us) that anything is possible, that this weight loss/healthy lifestyle thing is a journey not an event, that it is possible to stumble and get back up and most importantly, that we are all only human, perfect in our imperfections. Thank you for your courage.
I could not have said it better myself. There is strength in numbers, your comments are lovely and helpful.
Vi's words are so true! I don't know that I have any wise words to offer. But I do know that you are not alone. You have a great support system that is willing to do whatever you need to help you achieve your goals. As others have said, you have done this once; you will do it again!
As someone who lost 122 lbs on WW, made Lifetime, and then regained 117 quickly, boy, do I feel your pain. Deeply. But, I learned there is one good thing to take out of this experience: The knowledge you can do it again when you're ready.
Oh, Suzi...my heart goes out to you. It's so hard--when you lose the weight and are at your goal, you aren't sure if you're actually happy. You're SUPPOSED to be happy, but what if you lost a little more? Would people like you better? Would you like YOU better? The pressure can become overwhelming sometimes. I fell into a habit of self-sabotage over and over until I realized that only *I* could put food in my mouth, and maybe the food wasn't as comforting as I thought. (Also, I read "How to Break Free from Emotional Eating" by Geneen Roth and OMG it changed my life. I hate self help books, but this was like reading someone else's story that was JUST LIKE MINE.I hope that you realize you are worth love--size 6 or size 20.
You lost the weight once, you can do it again. I know it may not feel like it now but there is light at the end of the tunnel. *Hugs* you will get through this!
When I first dieted in 2007, I managed to lose 70 pounds. It took a little over a year for all 70, plus 20 of its friends to come back. And then another year or so in denial. On my second (and current) attempt, I have now lost twice the amount I did previously. We know you'll get back there, and most importantly, YOU know you'll get back there. However long it takes, we will always be here for as long as you want us. You were and still are one of my inspirations!xoMae
Remember, it can go the other way too. And it DOESN'T change who you are.
"hugs" your still the best!
love these comments and just wanted to let you know im thinking of you.BELIEVE.
I've gained 16.8 lbs in the last 7 weeks. It kind of feels like I've lost the emergency break and I'm screaming/hurdling towards complete and utter failure/self-destruction. That obviously does nothing to lift your spirits, but I wanted you to know that I confessed it here because I thought, "She gets it. I'm not looking for her to inspire or redirect me or actually *do* anything for me, because she's going through her own stuff. But I know she gets it."Somehow, your blog comment section seemed like a safe place to confess how I've been feeling about doing this to myself. It truly can happen to any of us...but I have to believe we can come back from that dark place, too.
Oh Suzi - does it help me saying that I've been there? That I know exactly how you feel and what you're going through? You're not alone, and you KNOW you have it in you to do this. Again. As much as it hurts that you even have to do it again at all.
I'm right there with you. You are not alone. You are a strong woman and you will find your way back to where you want to be. You will do it when you are ready.
today is a new day so make it count in your journeymake better choicesYou know what to do. Only you can turn this. You make me scared. Sorry this isn't all smiles and sunshine.
*hugs* You have an advantage in this. There are so many people who face those numbers and wonder if they will ever be able to change them. You, however, KNOW you can, since you've done it before. It's so hard, but you can do this. We're all rooting for you!
They're just numbers. You still kick ass. Never forget that.
6=Suzi20=SuziYou are who you are and it is what it is.Suck? Hell yes.I'm still here. I'm not alone either. There are a lot of us that learn from whatever you do.
You are so much more than a number - on a scale, a clothing label, or anywhere else.
Over the years, you have been a source and strength and motivation to a lot of people. I hope you know that you're not alone.
No matter the number, you are a rock star to me. I've done the same over the years - made it to goal and then back to where I started. But I always come back because I know who I am and who I want to be. You are in control, Suzi. Be who you are and proud of it, no matter what any scale or dress size says. You are beautiful and inspiring and I know, when you are ready, you will find your way back to where you want to be. ♥ ♥ ♥
I just came upon your blog today (sorry!) ;) It really Fing sucks to make it to a place you want to be and then lose it for one reason or another. I was trainging for both a half marathon and a fitness competition when I was struck down with a bunch of blood clots that I survived but left there marks in the form of nerve damage and other issues. I was able to do a pull up! An actual pull up! now I can barely get my stupid arm over my head! Makes me want to vomit. And of course with that followed me feeling sorry for myself, stopped working out (of course i found 101 ways to justify it) and began eating junk. So now Im having to rebuild a lot in regards to how I train, what I can and can not do. It sucks. I want to be back where I was. I dont want to start over. But theres only that option or the choice of continuing to head down the path that leads to a big ass and poor self esteem. Youre beautiful. Youre still the same person regardless of your size which means that same person can do it again if she chooses.
Be nice to yourself. It's going to be OK.
I know that it is quite hard to look the bright side but it is something that you can overcome it. As easy as you did before.
Good thing this didn't let you down totally Ms. Storm. It's just like the cost of hoodia; it's something you just shove aside.