Just a moment…


I’m not going to lie….I’ve been living in this “new” body of mine for over a year. The thoughts of the “old” me don’t really arise very often.  I mean don’t get me wrong, I remember everything bout how I looked and felt as the old me.  I do have pictures here on this blog which I check every day every week. 

But 95% of the time, I try to spend my time focusing on the present, fabulous me.  Because who want’s to dwell in the past right??

But sometimes I have just a moment…

A moment where I see my former self…A moment where my mind flashes with all the tears, the yelling, the pounding, the hate…I remember vividly how I felt back then.

And then I think about where I am today.

And all of a sudden my heart begins to flutter and my eyes swell with tears.

I never, NEVER imagined I would be where I am today. 

When I first walked (back) into a Weight Watchers meeting, I never thought I would even hit my goal weight, let alone become a face in their commercials and campaigns.

I never thought I would be able to sit here and say “I did it!!”  I’ve maintained my weight for over a year!! Sure, the holidays did a little damage, but its nothing that I’m not working hard at fixing.  This time, unlike so many times BEFORE WW, I am AWARE and I choosing to IMPROVE, not DAMAGE.

I never thought I would be able to sit here and say, “I am a Lifetime Weight Watcher member and a Weight Watcher Success Story”!!

But I can…because I never gave up on myself…I never stopped believing in myself or my goals.  Sure, I doubted them sometimes, but I never quit.

Sometimes I think to myself “holy F*ng Sh*t Ball F*ck!!!!”

When I heard that the theme was ‘Believe” I started to tear up (as did a lot of us who are in the ad) because it hit me like a ton of bricks…BELIEVE…it’s all you have to do!!

If you Believe in yourself, you can do anything.

Everyone always asks me…”how did you do it?” “what was the thing that got you going?”

I don’t have an answer for any of that…all I can say is that I walked into that meeting and I BELIEVED that I wanted to be there and I BELIEVED that I wanted to CHANGE my life…so I did…and so here I sit…

In part of the commercial we say “I am you, and you are me…”

I can’t think of a more honest line.

I am no better than any of you, and you are no better than me. We are one. One amazing group of individuals wanting, willing and BELIEVING in changing our lives.  Together we can, and we WILL do this.

We will make 2012 an amazing year…we will continue to grow and better ourselves.  Why??

Because we BELIEVE!!

Be sure to tune in tomorrow to ABC between 10-11pm EST to watch Dick Clark’s New Years Rockin’ Eve to catch the new Weight Watcher commercial. Feel free to raise your glasses (or beer bottles) and have a toast with me!!


Every one, please, have a very safe and VERY HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!!!!

Let’s ROCK 2012!!!!



So you see, I had this pretty lame witty idea for a blog post to kind of announce finally what I did in LA.

First I would tell you to go visit this link: Mysterious Link #1

Then I would tell you to go see this link as well: Mysterious Link #2

Also I would alert you to pick up the newest issue of Weight Watchers magazine with Jennifer Hudson on the cover.  As well the January 9th issues of In Touch, Us Weekly and Life & Style.

I would warn you to keep an eye out for this in your local Weight Watchers store:


And last but not least, I would tell you to tune in on New Years Eve to watch Dick Clarks Rockin’ New Years Eve show from 10-11, because that is when the commercial is airing.

But you see, Weight Watchers kind of killed my clever blog post by releasing this (when you click the link, look for the ‘Group Believe’…also a small glance of me during my photo shoot in Jennifer’s Behind The Scenes video) ….


Once the commercial actually airs, I will do a more in depth post.

There will be more to witness from all of this too, but I don’t even really know what that will be myself so I guess I will be surprised along with the rest of you!!

I believe that my 2012 is getting off to an *AMAZING* start!!


Here it is…the “2011 summed up” post…blah blah blah. 

In 2010 I blogged about all the stuff I wanted to achieve in 2011.

Little did I know that I would achieve all of that and then some.
This year I managed to maintain my weight…probably the thing I should be the most proud of.  Of course, there were (are) some ups and downs. I had (have) my moments of defeat and moments of success.  The important part is that I’ve stayed aware of my well being, and I have continued to go to my Weight Watcher meetings.

But 2011 also brought many, MANY surprises.  It was without a doubt one of the best years of my life.

I got to go to NYC and not only do a photo shoot for a Weight Watcher success story, but I also got to meet some good friends in NYC.

While doing my leader training for Weight Watchers, I got to attend their BLS training in Boston and meet some of the best people I have ever know.

I was selected to be one of Oprah’s 100 people who’ve lost 100 or more in her finale weight loss show.
I ran my very first marathon.

Then I went to LA….

LA is, without a doubt, the work I am most proud of.  I never gave up on the dream that this could happen. I knew it, deep down inside, that this is what I was meant to do. Inspire others. Make others *Believe* in themselves.

I also met some amazing people in LA…many of which are a daily part of my life today.  I have a whole new family, and that has been the best gift of all.

After my marathon in October, I was starting to get down on myself. 2011 was so great…was 2012 going to be a huge downer??  I mean, SERIOUSLY…how is 2012 going to out do 2011?!?!
2012 may not out do 2011. But something tells me that it is going to be a FANTASTIC year!! I will and I can make it one!!

In 2012 I hope to…
  • Maintain my weight…keep going to my WW meetings and keep being aware of what I am putting into my body
  • Continue my career with WW. I took a pause earlier this year, but I am back & trained & ready to inspire!!
  • I want to race less…I know this seems like a weird “goal” but last year just felt so pushed. I want to find races I love or do something on the spur the moment.  I’m over training, planning, down-to-the-T running. I’m going to run when I want to run & I’m going to love it, damnit!
I really got nothing else because I mean seriously…how can I top all that?!?!

…but something tells me there is a Storm a brewing….a good storm…a SUZI STORM!!

And don’t worry…my next post will have the clues to what all this LA business is about.  Some of you may know already, or have guessed, but the cat (or lion as some have said) will be let out of the bag soon enough.

Last but not least, I have to say thank you to you ALL.  Thank you for your support, your comments, your encouragement, your love...without that, I wouldn't be where I am today. I brought each and every one of you along with me on these amazing rides.  I can't wait to bond further & meet new, amazing people in the year(s) ahead. XOXO  
*CHEERS* to an amazing year, and to another great year ahead!!

Merry Christmas


I just want to take a moment to wish all of you a very Merry Christmas!! I hope you have a wonderful safe & happy holiday!!

Remember to be merry & share this magical time with loved ones…eat without (too) much guilt…and throw back a few cold ones ;)

My Christmas present to all of you is that I will finally be revealing what I did in LA…..



very, very soon. ;D 


'Tis the Season

It’s been a little bit since I’ve blogged. It feels like every time I would sit down these past couple of weeks to write, nothing came out. Idea’s would come and go but nothing ever stayed with me long enough to get it down. I’ve always gone by the rule that if I don’t feel passionate about what I am posting, then I’d rather post nothing. I’m not an “every day” blogger because I don’t have the time to do that (nor am I that creative). I work 2 jobs and have a family, a house and myself to take care of.

As I think about that last sentence, I realize all of it is true & is what has kept me from blogging the past 2 weeks…except for one part…taking care of myself.

I have not been taking care of myself. At all. Not one bit.

I’ve said “yes” to the cookies. I’ve said “give me all your cheese & chips & dips”. I’ve said “Ok, just one more beer” about 12 times a night.

I’ve said “I’ll work out tomorrow”. I’ve said “tomorrow I will track”. I’ve said “tomorrow I will make better choices”.

Well the tomorrow’s have come and gone and here I am…Still treating myself like I have committed a crime.

The 7 lb gain on the scale is not what scares me. Fuck, that didn’t even jump start me into getting back on track. That just made me head to Wendy’s for a W burger & grab some more beer.

It’s the clothes that don’t fit right, the look on my face, the way I carry myself, the things I think about myself, that scares me.

The weight will come off. That doesn’t worry me. What worries me is the pattern I’ve slipped into and how hard I’m finding it to save myself from drowning in it.

But then I tell myself…’Tis the Season!! In a way, I feel like that’s an excuse, but you know what…it’s kind of a legit one. Temptation is all around, and unlike last year, I’ve given in WAY more…but it happens. My Activity Points earned on a weekly basis have been 0…but it happens.

This weather is depressing. We barely see any sunshine. I go into work in the dark. I get out of work in the dark. Depressing!!

The thing is, I know that you can survive the holiday season without all this negativity and weight gain. I’ve done it in the past!! Last year, on December 23rd I made Lifetime with Weight Watchers!! It *CAN* be done. I guess this year…I just jumped ship.

One would think that I would be on top of my game right now. In just a few short days everything that I worked SO hard for and one of the proudest moments in my life will be revealed. I would want to look my best and feel my best right??


But I do not.

So I can do one of two things. I can stop this pity party, smack myself in the face & get back to treating myself, my mind and my body, like it deserves to be treated. I know that by doing this that it will lead me back to happiness. Or I could just stay on this train and head into a major wreck.

I am choosing to be happy. I am letting go of all the negativity. I am letting go of all the bad choices. I am letting go of all the regrets.

I am moving forward. I am making a pledge to be more mindful of my choices. I am tracking. I am moving my body. I am forgiving.

Sometimes we don’t have “perfect” days, weeks or even months. In my case, it’s felt like a few months. It’s realizing the issues and being able to forgive yourself and move on that reminds us how we really do love ourselves & want the best health we can give ourselves. No amount of holiday treats can take that away from us.

Do not ever give up on yourself.

To be Thankful…


A lot of people have been doing this great #thanksaday post either on their blogs, Twitter or Facebook.  I’ve really been moved by these.  I would have participated myself, but you all know how much I hate numbers and counting.

Thanksgiving means so much to so many in very different ways.  To me personally, I have never been a *huge* Thanksgiving person.  I mean, I love me some gobble gobble and I am my fathers daughter when I say that I can eat a bag of potatoes by myself on this holiday…and about 6 jars of gravy…but of course, I bring my own Fat Free gray cause that’s how you rock it WW style!!

Here are a just a few simple tips & tricks I try to follow on Turkey Day that help me to enjoy & indulge, but not feel overwhelmed:

  • Remember that Thanksgiving is ONE day…not a long weekend.  The bites stop there.  Don’t turn any indulgence on Thanksgiving day into indulgences the next day and the day after and before you know it, it’s Christmas.  It’s ONE day…ONE meal. 
  • Bring a dish!!  Make something that you know will be a “safe” dish for you and that others will love.  This may mean that you have to research it and guess what, that’s time that’s kept you busy and away from the kitchen :)
  • Some staples you can bring a lighter version of, like gravy!! I am a gravy freak!! I pour it all over my plate.  So therefore I bring my own jar of Fat Free gravy in a microwave safe container which I heat up before it’s time to eat.  My inlaws do not consider this rude as they understand why.  Be proud of all the hard work you have put into looking fabulous!! Bring a lighter gravy, butter, biscuits…any little thing you can that will help.
  • Make AT LEAST 1/2 of your plate veggies if possible…squash is so in season right now.  Better yet, if you are worried about there not being enough veggies where you are going, make that the “safe” dish that you bring!!
  • Exercise before hand!!  I know this is difficult if you are the one preparing dinner, but if you can get out, even for 20 minutes, a quick workout before heading into the festivities can make ALL the difference.  I never have much time before going to my boyfriends family’s house, but I always make sure to get in at least a 3 mile run before we go.
  • If you *want* pie…FUCKING HAVE PIE!!!!  Seriously…have a slice of pie. Don’t have 8 slices, but have one.  Because you know that at 11:00 that night you are going to regret not having it and god only knows what you will have.
  • Forgive yourself.  So you went and got that 3rd plate….So you said yes to the 2nd slice of pie….So you ate the entire basket of croissant rolls…FORGIVE yourself!! Like I said earlier, it’s one day.  Tomorrow is a new day with new choices.  We don’t always make the best choices, and we don’t always try our hardest.  It happens. Accept it, forgive it and MOVE ON!!

Don’t fret over Thanksgiving.  Try to not go overboard, but enjoy!!  If you are a Weight Watcher, you can be the “lazy” Weight Watcher a little bit on this day.  The WW police are not going to show up.  As long as you pick yourself up the next day and move forward in a healthy path, you are A-OK!! Just don’t break out the size smaller jeans the next day cause, well, you are just setting yourself up for disaster.

Here are some thing I am truly Thankful for:

  1. A healthy and happy relationship that is full of love DSC00096
  2. A handsome & healthy 13 year old boy in my life (Franks son) who makes me say “Where’s your damn coat!?” and makes me feel crazy for saying such things102
  3. My health and the ability to run  tsrpic1
  4. My family (only some of them (the drunk ones) pictured here DSC00095
     5.   This little darling coming into our lives this year (as well my two other wonderful cats Phantom & Amelia Bedelia). Baby ‘Storm’ DSC00914     6.    Weight Watchers for giving me the tools, strength & belief that I could be this woman SusanB_119_300_sidebar

   7. And of course….thanks to beer DSC01122

    8. All of the amazing opportunities I have had this year, and well, the one coming up just might be the one I am proudest of to yet.  I really can’t wait to share it will all of you.

    9. And last, but certainly not least….I am thankful for all of YOU!!

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving!!

The right fit?

We all knew that it would happen someday again…that day when Weight Watchers gets another celebrity endorsement. It was bound to happen and really, can you blame them??

How many people have Jennifer Hudson inspired since she became the face for WW?? How many people have joined *just* because they saw HER story?? I know a couple of people personally who were inspired to start their own journey’s because of her.

Sometimes a celebrity endorsement can really help. Sometimes I think it can hurt. But in my honest opinion I think Weight Watchers does a really good job on marketing their “celebrity”. Let’s be honest, they don’t mass produce celebrity endorsements like some weight loss companies out there. And a lot of the celebrities (Jennifer Hudson, Tina Fey, Jenny McCarthy, Ginnifer Goodwin and many more) who have done the WW program tend to keep their weight off which I think is just another reason why them having celebrity endorsement's doesn’t bother me too much, because I actually believe these celebrities and the journey’s they have taken to lead a healthier life for themselves.

Oh yeah, and I’m living proof that it does work even on the non-famous, so that helps too. :)

So rumor has it that Jessica Simpson is slated to be the newest face of Weight Watchers (though this has not been officially confirmed as of yet). She is pregnant right now but after she gives birth she wants to use the WW program to get the baby weight off and get her body back.
Actually, Jessica Simpson doesn’t bother me too much. Some may call her a ditz, others just call her a really smart ditz. I think she has a fun energy about her. She’s done work in various fields and does a lot of great charity work. She wouldn’t go on my top 10 actress list or anything, but I think she’s alright.

She has always had weight & body issues but has never shied away from them or embracing her curves which I find very admirable. Her self confidence is something that I think is really great and would be great for WW. She also has a huge southern fan base, especially amongst young girls so I think the outreach to them would be wonderful not only for the program but for women of the south as well who need a positive, healthy role model (sorry Paula Deen).

However, here is the thing with her…we all know she can lose weight. We have seen her lose weight many, many times throughout her career. Her problem always seems to be keeping the weight off. So is Weight Watchers the final answer to her yo-yoing ways?? I think it could be, of course!! If we can see her lose weight on this program and actually *keep* it off, well then I think that scores another point in the Celebrity Endorsement success ring for Weight Watchers. 

I still believe that Weight Watchers picks their celebrity endorsements wisely & don’t just use them to show off their program.  Sure, you might not connect with each one, but I'm sure that there are a lot of people who will connect with her, just like have with Jennifer Hudson and the ones before her.  Let’s also not forget that they still use us real people right along side these famous people!!        

California Dreamin’


So this post is long over due, but hey! I’ve been busy going out and drinking catching up with work & things around the house.

As many of you know, I went to California for a week recently to shoot a commercial and as campaign.  What is that commercial and campaign for?? Well, you will just have to keep reading my blog for a few more weeks to find out (I swear, this isnt a desperate attempt to keep you all around, but hey, if its working I just might be onto something).

I can’t even begin to describe how much I *LOVED* California.  I did not expect to fall in love with that place, but I did, hard.  I even told Frankie that if it wasn’t for him and the cats, I would have stayed there. Seriously.  It was like a perfect mix of busy but calm.  Everything was beautiful, even when it wasn’t…does that make sense??  It wasn’t as busy as NYC, but it wasn’t the boring suburbs either.  Not a day has gone by yet where I haven’t thought about that place & the time spent there.

Another amazing thing about California??  The super awesome people I got to meet.  These people are some of the most amazing people I have ever met.  We bonded in a very strong way.  I love them to pieces and they have become like a family.  I miss them every.single.day.

SO, since I can’t go into what exactly the “work” is that I did in LA, I can talk about how I spent my free time with my peeps.  I figured its easiest to do that in photos, with some commentary as we go along.  This is mostly in order, but a few photos may jump around…So go grab yourself beer, sit back and Enjoy!!

DSC01105This was the view from my windows on the plane…flying first class, or as I like to call it, free alcohol class. I have never seen mountains….I was in awe.

DSC01112PALM TREES!!!!!! This picture and the one below are the views from the balacony of my hotel room. Yes, I had a balcony and yes, it fucking rocked!!


DSC01133This is Fox Studios.  It was directly behind out hotel.  Very cool!!


Most of the photo’s you are about to see were taken on top of a double decker bus.  We decided on our day off to pay $35 for an all excess bus tour and it was AWESOME!!!! Seriously, the best $25 EVER spent.  You could get off at different stops and hang out for a while.  Busses ran the route every 20 minutes.  We got to see SO much of LA thanks to this amazing tour. If you ever get to go to LA, do the Starline Sightseeing tour!!

DSC01137DSC01143Girls just want to have fun!!!! (while we freeze our asses off on top of that bus)


Beverly Hills Hotel, where the first Oscars were held. Audrey Hepburn was here before *swoon*.


Can somebody say Police Academy?!

DSC01163SANTA MONICA PIER BABY!!!!!! I was finally able to see the ocean.  I had to hold back tears, seriously…

DSC01168DSC01169DSC01173My feet in California sand.  The most amazing feeling in the world!!


Fun fact…the Palm Trees that you see here are the only kind of Palm Tree that are indigenous to California.  Every other Palm Tree has been imported.  This is the same street that many openings of movies and TV shows have been shot. Can you say “Hello 90210?!”

DSC01191DSC01199DSC01203Rodeo Dr. Yeah….it’s pretty much where I do all my shopping now.

DSC01204DSC01207DSC01208DSC01212DSC01218Flynt Publications, as in Larry Flynt, as in Hustler magazine.

DSC01223DSC01228DSC01235Renee is ready for some Pinks Hot Dogs!!!!  As are the rest of us, which we might regret later.  We ended up eating at Hot Dog On A Stick earlier at the beach, then this….oof.  But it was delicious!! I got the Ozzy dog, of course.

DSC01236DSC01238Waiting for the bus to pick us up after Pinks…seemed like it took FOREVER.  This photo has always been and always will be titled ‘LA Rocks!’.

DSC01248DSC01252DSC01260DSC01265DSC01267Kick ass poster for ‘American Horror Story’, the most badass show on television lately.


DSC01366DSC01368DSC01369DSC01289Weird to think that Marilyn Monroe’s hand was a bit bigger than mine, especially since her feet were SO damn tiny.


Ahhh, one of my favorite photos….Me and my husband, Robert Downey Jr holding hands. XOXO

DSC01319It’s hard to see because it was dark out at this point but that’s the Viper room!!

379796_2368099896036_1656602496_2383412_1430094884_nWaiting for the last bus, poor Renee was freezing so Jennifer snuggled with her.  We we’re about to board a bus driven by Vladamir…the craziest tour bus driver to exist.

DSC01331Another few from the hotel…we could see the Hollywood sign!! (Right Jenn Winking smile)

DSC01334I bought myself a special present while in LA to give myself an anchor to remember the amazing time I had.

DSC01343OK…so, here’s the thing.  What do you do when it’s like 9:00 at night and you know you have stuff to do the next day so you can’t go too crazy, but you’re too riled up to just go to bed…well than you come to Suzi’s room to have a beer and play truth or dare!!  This is sweet Lindsey and we dared her boyfriend Patrick to put my red lipstick on her face with whatever hand he doesn’t use to write with.  Even with that mess on her face she is still an adorable little hottie!!


This is Jennifer.  Oh, how I love Jennifer.  She got the most “dares” out of anybody in that room.  This was a retelling of the old Molly Ringwald classic.  She pulled it off like a champ too!!

And if anyone is wondering, the Four Seasons accommodates to Transgendered guests.  We made a phone confirmation of that, LOL!! Oh man, good times, good times.DSC01349We saw an amazing photo exhbit here at the Annenburg, for free!! It was a great way to kill some time & see some pop culture.


Some of the crew!! You have Emily, Yours truly, Renee, Brian (B-Dog), and Jenn. This was outside at our hotel.  It was really gorgeous. This was right after our trip to Pink Taco!! (hee hee hee)

Man…look at all those people drinking beer.  I don’t believe I had *ANYTHING* to do with that.



DSC01122FYI…I’m wearing Chanel in this picture…bet you can’t guess where!!



Well, I think that’s pretty much it!! Well, at least what I can share anyways Winking smile.  I could not feel more blessed than to have had this experience and to be able to share it with such amazing people.  I will never be able to fully express how grateful I am.  California will forever hold a very special place in my heart.

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