Coulda, woulda, shoulda!

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There are some days where you just want to give up. Not on life, but on trying so damn hard all the time.


There are days where you just get sick & tired of watching what you eat or what you drink….days where you’d rather poke yourself in the eye with a sharp nail than go and work out.

There are days of guilt about what you’ve eaten or done to your body. There are days where you wish more than anything that you could “un-do” what you did, but you can’t.

All you can do is move forward. Why sit here feeling sorry for ourselves?? We all fuck up. We all make mistakes. Anybody who says that they make good healthy choices 100% of the time is just a pure liar!!

We know we slip, we know we fall, but then why do we beat ourselves up so much on our way back to the top??

I wasn’t god awful this weekend. I actually made a lot of really positive and healthy choices. But of course along with those good choices were some bad ones as well. Saturday I said no to pizza & wings & had a salad instead (only to sneak a piece at 11:00 at night after lots of drinking :/ ) I drank on Sunday (something I told myself I wouldn’t do) at my family’s get together & I ate some things I shouldn’t have. I’m paying for it now thanks to a huge hangover. But so far today my only “bad” choice was half a jug of Orange Juice this morning to help ease the pain some.
I told myself that I would be good because I want to see a loss this week at my WW meeting. I want that 80 lb star damnit!!

But I did what I did. All I can do is try my hardest the next couple of days and remember that it was only a slip, it wasn’t a plummet. I’ve picked myself up and dusted myself off and have reminded myself that with the bad, there was good, and that’s pretty much how it will always be. I will always fall, but *I will always get back up*. Nobody can take my success away from me, and I certainly do not lose any of the credit I’ve earned so far on this journey just because I had a few slip ups.

I am a huge fan of this song by John Mayer, especially at times like these. It reminds me of how strong I am and how I continue to grow stronger, mentally & physically.

Bigger Than My Body by: John Mayer

This is a call to the color-blind
This is an IOU
I'm stranded behind a horizon line
Tried to be something true

Yes, I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded (by)
All this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting
For my fears to dry

Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be something much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for

Why is it not the time?
What is there more to learn?
I've shed this skin that I've been chipping at
And I've never quite returned

Yes, I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded (by)
All this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting
For my fears to dry

Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be something much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for
Cause I'm bigger than my body now

Maybe I'll tangle in the power lines
And it might be over in a second's time
But I'll glady go down in a flame
If the flame's what it takes to remember my name

Yes, I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded (by)
All this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting
For my fears to dry
Wait for my fears to dry

Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be something much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body
I'm bigger than my body
I'm bigger than my body now


Sorry to have such a somber post for the first day of summer, lol.  I hope everyone is enjoying the longest day of the year!! :D  Remember to do your Crunches & Pushups!!
 
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6 comments:

  1. I sooo feel this today. My weigh ins are on Sundays, and it makes Saturdays so stressful. I some times want to say- screw it- why do I have to spend my Saturday stressing about what I'm going to eat, and if it's going to affect my Sunday morning. I worked my ass off, and had a .8 gain. There is no reason. But it sucks. I'm trying really hard to not let it put me into a funk. I will say this, though, the one thing that has gotten me this far is moving on from a bad day, and not letting it snowball. Good for you for moving on. One bad weekend doesn't turn us into mushballs. It doesn't undo 79 pounds. As long as we pick right back up and learn from that crappy feeling in our tummy. I know what you mean about wanting that star. I'm 5 pounds away from my 75 pound charm and I want that stupid piece of metal so bad!
    Have a great week!

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  2. i have been doing my crunches. kept thinking, "suzi says so!" i only rocked out 25, but i guess it's a start, right?!

    and you're right, it's only a slip. you have a 79 pound loss to prove that it was only a slip, not a pattern of continuous bad choices. you are rocking at life and weight loss!

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  3. Great post and great song sister. You are beautiful and I love your spirit. Loves ya!! xoxoxox

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  4. love you girlllll!! <3

    my problem is is that i'm having a hard time making much progress at all because i continue slipping up.. i mean, i could have fallen off and gained back all of the weight i've lost and be back up to 216... so it's not a total waste. i just can't wait until i can lose as much as you. you are SUCH an inspiration and i am SO GLAD i found you in this huge, blog world!!

    **HUGS**

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  5. I SO believe that picking ourselves up is a huge key to success. I like where you say it was a slip, not a plummet. Awesome.

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  6. Just stumbled upon you from Jack Sh*t. I love this post this was my big realization this week... well yesterday. Just wanted to say You are doing great you look great and keep pluggin' along! You'll get that 80 even if it isn't this week!

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