So I had my WW meeting tonight and I was planning on doing a different type of post about it when I had a bit more time, but I just have to get something out there…
Before going in today's meeting, I didn't really know what to think. Normally I feel *fat* or *bloated* or *great*…normally when I feel gross I do well and when I feel great I gain, LOL. Can some one tell me what the hell that is all about?!?! Talk about mind games.
Well I ended up with a 3 lb loss tonight!! I had a feeling I would have a loss…something felt different. Everything felt smaller in a way, as strange as that sounds. Well, I guess that tracking every single beer I drank this week for the first time on WW’s helped!!
I was SO excited about this. This gave me another 5 lb star for 65 pounds lost and actually that puts me at 67.6 lost so far!! WOOO WOOO!!
So here’s the victory part…my first time on WW, I lost a lot of weight…alot less than I originally thought actually, but it was about 55 lbs. I thought I still had about another 2 lbs to be to where I was when I last left WW’s and got together with Frank. For shits and giggles I decided to pull out my weight tracker from years ago and check and well………
I WEIGH LESS!!!!!!!
I am .6 less than where I was when I had my last WI with WW before leaving almost 3 years ago!! At that point in my life I felt great. Frankie loved my body and I was *so* confident. Funny thing is…I think I am *more* confident now!!
So I can say “Bye-Bye” to the old WW weight tracker that ONCE recorded my lowest weight (known to WW’s that is) and rip it up if I wanted to (but I wont)…
Side note: I apologize for the obscene fingernail polish…it’s to support the Syracuse Orange Basketball & their game in the NCAA tournament tomorrow night. GO ORANGE!!
A few people who are close to me know just *how* important getting to this point was. I am still a little bit away from my goal weight…though according to one lady at my meeting tonight, not very far!! I have dreamed of being back to this point for what seems like eternity, yet it only took a little over a year. I just wanted to be back to where I *was*…now, I’M PAST IT!!!!
I’m going to keep working hard. I am going to keep putting forth my best effort. I am going to keep fucking up sometimes but I am going to keep forgiving myself. I am going to keep trying new things. I am going to keep pushing myself to the limit. I am going to keep trying my utmost best to stay on track. I am going to make myself prouder and prouder each day!!
Now is not the time to give up…now is the time to prove to myself that I can do this!! That I am *STRONGER* than *EVER* before!!
I’ve never posted my weight like this before, but my dear TJ over at TJ's Test Kitchen inspired me to put my #’s out there. I’ve always felt, and still kind of do, that my weight # is *HUGE*. I guess I don’t factor in the part that I am quite tall for a female and in reality, I’m only about 15 lbs off from being the “healthy” weight. So here they are:
As of 3/18/10-
Height= 5’9 (um…this probably (and hopefully) wont change for many, MANY years LOL)
Weight= 184.4 lbs
So thank you TJ. You are a huge inspiration to me, and your tweets help me get through the day with a lot of laughs and motivation. I absolutely adore you and you are kicking so much ass lately!! Just Keep Swiiiiiiiiiimming!!!!!!! ;-D XOXO